Huh. I’ve looked up an old friend from way back when, we used to be together and stuff and we had a big blow up and misunderstandings were had and all that stuff, about two decades ago. A lot of time has come and gone since then and I discovered their Twitter X account that they made four years ago. Took a look and discovered that they have diabetes and haven’t uploaded or updated in a year and up until now, I thought they were dead, then they are alive all this time, but could be dead again as of a year ago. I want to reconnect, but we didn’t end on good terms, as we had a pretty big fight. Twenty years later, they live in my head, rent free. Only now, they may very well be gone forever and I’m too scared to find out for sure; perhaps I should just let history be as it will, but they don’t seem to be doing great, as now, they have diabetes and gastroparesis with large bezoars commonly showing up in their G.I.. I’m not even sure if they remember me, but it’s probably better they don’t, as I was quite rotten and didn’t treat others with respect and only thought about myself…used to bully. I’m actually at a loss with myself, as our last conversation was that they never wanted to see or hear of me ever again because of my betrayal to their trust…it broke my heart, but I only can blame myself, as I was young and naïve at the time and I didn’t think my actions had consequences and I thought everything could just be okay the next day over. Two decades is a long time to hold a grudge, but I certainly wouldn’t put it over anybody if they did. I only wish I could undo my mistakes.
TL;DR, at a loss over old, irrelevant drama.