[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

Oh great, now EmployeeAMillion is very close to dying on us.

@Pacific Glow  
I really hope EmployeeAMillion ate something.

@warc9  
He may or may not have eaten something. At this point, he can’t eat solid food without bad things happening to his stomach.

@Pacific Glow  
I’ve seen him post stuff here,hopefully that means he ate something.

@warc9  
I don’t really know about that.

@warc9  
Y’know it takes about 3+ weeks to die of starvation.

@EmployeeAMillion  
Seriously, please don’t die on me. T_T

@EmployeeAMillion  
But you shouldn’t kill yourself.
 
http://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/
 
No one should.
 
Call someone.

@Pacific Glow  
@warc9  
I feel as though by the 14-day mark, my brain will give up as much as my body. You better pray I have weak will power.

@EmployeeAMillion  
Shit, I feel like I have no control now. What caused you to do this?

@Pacific Glow  
Genuine disgust towards my lack of positive future among other things.

@EmployeeAMillion  
How can I help?

@EmployeeAMillion  
The future isn’t set in stone. If there’s even a slight chance that things will get better, why not give living a shot?

@EmployeeAMillion  
Life is worth living.
 
http://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/

For real, though, EAM, I’ve spent time in a crisis center in the past for being suicidal. I may not know exactly what you’re going through since everyone’s situation is different, but if you want to talk, I’d like to think given my past, I have a good idea of how you feel.
 
Just remember that if you think your life can’t possibly get any worse, that means it can only get better.

@pixel  

Au contraire, I feel as though the best years of my life are behind me and that it’s going to descend into a monotonous, useless lifetime without feeling okay ever again.

@EmployeeAMillion  
I’m not sure what, specifically, makes you feel this way but as far as I know, you don’t have the power to predict the future. How can you be so sure the best years of your life are over? Don’t throw away your life for mere speculation.
 
You may not care about your life right now, but many others and I do. If you could at least explain to us why you think depriving us of such a special friend is the best solution, please let us know.

@EmployeeAMillion  
I really really hope that you don’t die, but if anything bad does happen. Your random comments I see you post about drawings are some of the most cheerful and optimistic things I’ve seen lately, which is a great relief when everything feels like endless depression. Your closeness to your friends is enviable, and you will be missed.

@EmployeeAMillion  
But you have no way of knowing that.
 
http://www.iasp.info/resources/Crisis_Centres/
 
Call someone.

@EmployeeAMillion  
Please do not do this. Eat something.

@EmployeeAMillion  
au contraire to u because you were the one who made those best years become a reality and its very possible to make some good memories on your own. you’re making no steps towards replicating that, with every passing day accumulating regret and growing further from the memories wasting your time on a website
 
I don’t know how young you are but when I was a kid, I wish I had been given the advice that the internet is not an acceptable replacement for socialization. dopamine highs are easy and fuck your head up to where you reach where you are now, looking for a quick fix when the only way out of this requires effort and work
 
either you kill yourself or stop dreaming and start living, I’m aware that you know this as your method of death is really fucking stupid if you really wanted to go out. yeah you need to work on your indecision, but you’re going to cripple yourself by the time you figure what you want to figure out. maybe. idk it is a possibility, not one I’d personally chance. not when the option to live on to greater things is ahead of me. it’s all a matter of perspective
 
speaking of perspective I’m really hoping some mod doesn’t come across this and think I’m breaking rule zero when I’m telling someone not to kill themselves, one of them is being pretty damn petty it looks like and forgive me if I didn’t want to shit out some cookie cutter response that wouldn’t be anything but a discarded thought. not worried about getting banned really, just want my advice out there
 
up to you to change shit dude, I’ve been borderline suicidal for years and finally found my muse. wasn’t easy and took years of dicking around but I’m a hell of a lot happier with how things look now. even if they are still stygian lmao

@warc9  
Saved thanks.  
@hype  
Why did I just imagine Scootaloo saying that? :P

@hype
 
Just wanted to say that Hype is telling EmployeeAMillion not to kill themselves, and it also seems like they put a lot of thought into what they wrote.

@EmployeeAMillion  
You think that’s weird? I’m imagining Spongebob being really depressed :x
 
Also I’m Background Pony #A675. I really hope things get better for you.

@hype  
Basically what he said. Suicide is not reversible, and even if it was, your mind would never forgive you for trying to kill you. This is not a mistake you can unmake, and you will be causing tremendous unnecessary pain to the people who care about you.