[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@LeoNero  
Maybe you’re just tired?
 
 
@Applejack007  
She is still a good doggo from the sounds of it.
 
 
@Nupie The Hero  
I’m here for you.
 
 
@Dave33333  
I do know how it feels.
 
 
@Crystalis  
I’m sorry to hear that.
 
Take some deep breaths maybe?

@LeoNero  
I am the same way

@Applejack007  
Thanks :(

@warc9  
Thanks :(

@Nupie The Hero  
Anytime.

Tomorrow….TOMORROW.

I want to get to the bottom of all of this.

@Applejack007  
With help you will.

@warc9  
I just hope I don’t lose parts of myself I hold dear..

@Applejack007
 
I been reading a bit of your situation these last couple of days and I’m wondering, how did this depression of yours started? At what time? Do you feel that there’s something that been worrying you lately?
 
One of the worst feelings that we can have is the uncertainty, because if we don’t know what’s what it causes to ourselves the problem, we won’t know how to keep going; it’s like to live without a base.

@TheAnonShy  
Hm..I’m not sure what exactly caused it to get this bad. It started over a week ago now. I remember I was playing my PS4 late at night when my SO asked if I was going to bed…I got annoyed and it made her feel bad. I got mad at myself, I never want to make her feel bad. We made up though…I don’t think it was that. We made up. But I have been feeling bad since this college semester started because I waited last minute to tell my mom I didn’t want to go through with my career choice and it caused some problems. I felt like a failure to her. I started taking my course online and I’ve been home a lot this semester…but still, I don’t know what caused the VERY intrusive thoughts.

Well…I guess there are a lot of things in the mix. But feeling like this only started recently.

More details. Recently my mom told me to stop taking birth control because she read that it can cause depression (I take it because I have a hormone disorder which was fucking with my menstrual cycles). Well I stopped that, and I stopped taking another medicine last year for PCOS, at my doctor’s orders. That medicine was also helping keep my weight down but I’ve gained since then. She also recently got me these…mood pills that I take. I guess they help? I don’t know. I still get random anxiety spikes and intrusive thoughts but I haven’t been crying lately, in fact today I found myself smiling and laughing as I RPed with some online friends. I’m still worried though. I don’t feel quite as attatched to things that I used to enjoy. But I’m trying. My apppointment is finally tomorrow and I hope this is something easily fixed.

@Applejack007  
I hope that this works out for you.

@Tranquil Night  
Me too

Nupie = depressed Trash

@Nupie The Hero  
What’s going on?

@Nupie The Hero  
You know, putting yourself down like this isn’t helpful.

@Applejack007  
I feel unneeded in the fandom

@Nupie The Hero  
Why? Who is making you feel like that?

@warc9  
you know not having alot of people to talk to makes me sad and doe’s not help

@Applejack007  
I feel like I don’t matter much on derpibooru and my ocs too  
I feel lonely

@Nupie The Hero  
You do matter, I’ll be your friend.

I don’t know and thanks for want to be my friend, I am crying

@Nupie The Hero  
I still want to be your friend, and talk to you.
 
I’m just saying, putting yourself down like this isn’t healthy.