*Sigh* once again; I’m feeling once again those unpleasant sensations. My heart beats are accelerated, I feel nervous, it costs me to breathe: it’s like that I feel that I’m being persecuted, maybe persecuted by myself, I don’t know how to exactly describe it. I want to punch myself, hide myself, and ‘cry’ with no apparent reason.
This is stressful, the worst part is not even being sure of what’s the problem, what is the root that starts these feelings. I can theorize, analyze myself multiple times, but it’s not enough. When I finish some courses that I do in the weeks, I will go to a psychologist, for my own good.
Something is definitely wrong, and I keep self-deprecating internally.
I’m hurting myself, and it’s starting to be worse…