[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
Men need love, too.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
try out men then

@Background Pony #6DA2  
Maybe I’ll try you out big boy.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
<3~

@Background Pony #6DA2  
I already had a thing for LightningBolt.
 
Ain’t that man enough?

I’m reminded that I don’t have friends.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
Lightning bolt isn’t a guy

The worm has surfaced.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
Thanks

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
Worm.

I shouldn’t have said some things on the happy venting thread. I shouldn’t have made that pessimistic response to Count Adramélekh Sear in that thread. It was wrong. And I really shouldn’t do that again. I am completely scared for what these dark times have done to me for over the past 13 months. I’m gonna go take a break after my rage quit of episode 4 from The Falcon and the Winter Soldier, cause that one ending scene speaks the truth of how cruel and broken the world has been. I’ll be right back. I need to calm down. I never should’ve done that on the happy venting thread.

I want to commit suicide becuase my brain is has been obsessed with pornography. I have been actually binging it for 11 straight years now and my recent dream is that I fucked my own mother which is deathly wrong in multidimensional ways possibly in my taboo.

@Count Adramélekh Sear  
No. Dude, committing suicide is not the answer. And besides, and I understand that it sounds wrong, but just remember that it’s only just a nightmare. Please understand. You might need to take a break from that stuff for a while. And also, I’m sorry about my pessimistic response back there on the happy venting thread. It was wrong for me to do that.

@Shylover  
I want a brain transplant instead.

@Count Adramélekh Sear  
In that case I’d of never PMd you those titties.
 
I see masturbation as a trend, everyone is trippin’ off the same damn buzz.
 
That’s white stuff it’s bone!

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@altopony  
I’ll always listen.

@altopony  
What’s buggin’ you?

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@altopony  
Who do you want to be? A role model might help.

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@altopony  
Me? Danny Trejo.

@Count Adramélekh Sear
 
||I went for about 22 months without ejaculting once, not counting wet dreams. I also went on a “absolutely no porn on purpose” binge, after a while; it excluded if I was re-directed from a site I didn’t want to be re-directed from, though I wouldn’t stay at the site. It was difficult to stop jerking off, and most of the difficulty was in the first 6 months. I felt I had to continue. It was because I felt tons of self hate, and large enough thoughts of suicide to be of concern. I went through with it from Jan 2nd 2016 - November something 2017. It can be done.
 
Here’s a link to a thread I participated in, then. I’m “101volts” there: Link. ||

Depression leads to pain.
 
And pain leads to anger!

Fuck life.