i'm suspended from discord for being vulgar and scary or something (and talking about dox mostly). i don't want to bother people with it
I drew this violent fucked up art for money and bragged about it 2 years ago, and so many people have just stopped loving me, that i keep lashing out and making conflict, because I have nothing left. I can't even draw anymore, and I tried, so the whole collab thing is a bust, multiple people i'm emotionally unable to be a friend to that now hate me.
I feel like i'm turning into a sociopath. I'm afraid to depend on the emotional trust of anyone anymore, I just stare into space and can't look at people when talking to them.