[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ

@Gameplay The Pony
My old friend.

I've never heard of them, but other users here probably have.

@Gameplay The Pony
This is an old friend.

He just got up and left, guess the collab put too much pressure on him.

I wouldn't have this badge without Ninji.

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@Dashiefluffywaifu
We know, don't #0 yourself here.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ
Youre right its not even worth the bullshit heh

Hopefully they're ok.

ive found out today that i might have an illness that prevents me from getting truly happy. like im physically able to only feel relieved or okay at best. it doesnt have any difficult side effects and probably wont directly kill me, but it sure wont fucking stop me from doing it myself because i dont have a reason to keep trying anymore

@Background Pony #6DA2

Anhedonia?

@Zincy
idk i just know there is something wrong with the way my endocrine system makes hormones, because if im proven wrong i have absolutely no idea whats wrong with me

More beer. Great!

How can I say no to that?

Whoooo look at me I'm a toxic fuckboy who bases their self worth off of sex, wtfs wrong with this world?

I feel like crying.

I feel like dying.

I feel like a flamethrower soldier that found out why incendiary bullets are no fun.

I'm gonna drink a lotta beer and stay up all night.

I can't be who I want to be, I might as well be dead.

Shoot me.

what the fuck did i do to deserve being so fucking depressed all the time just getting out of bed took so much energy today its unreal..

I'm alive. My soul is just gone, and it's so many things. I'm afraid i've acted ways where people are just unable to love me anymore.

@Deactivated_20210116_01
hugs tightly
thats not true good people will always love you for who you are

@altopony
i will at least heh

@altopony
i'm suspended from discord for being vulgar and scary or something (and talking about dox mostly). i don't want to bother people with it

I drew this violent fucked up art for money and bragged about it 2 years ago, and so many people have just stopped loving me, that i keep lashing out and making conflict, because I have nothing left. I can't even draw anymore, and I tried, so the whole collab thing is a bust, multiple people i'm emotionally unable to be a friend to that now hate me.

I feel like i'm turning into a sociopath. I'm afraid to depend on the emotional trust of anyone anymore, I just stare into space and can't look at people when talking to them.

Had a panic attack today. It sucked 😥

I did these two horrific vulgar sequences and then got 100$ for a 4 page comic, and ran away crying midway, with no way to pay them back.

at first i thought i was just going to wash away the memories with drugs, but the people i showed the art, their emotional trust in me was mortally scarred, and that's when the trauma set in.

Since I'm dead inside and constantly need to justify my own reason for living, i'm going to be like a transsexual airforce pilot. Do some more of the vulgar unlovable stuff maybe, but do it to save the hearts of a group that does not deserve to be ostracized like I do.

I think Explosive ordinance disposal isn't a good idea with my wiry nervres, death in the air is less frightening, because its less random.

@TwilyIsBestPone
yeah, I hate having near a heart attack from worrying about my heart.

I'm like 180/120 110bpm, mortal danger every day, when the large amounts of DXM and Alcohol go away randomly.

I could have a panic attack just looking at a taxidermy animal now, my heart is so weak