[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@Rainboom Dash  

@Rainboom Dash  

 
In that case, you haven’t seen the best weatherman in the world then.

@HighRollerHydra  
Whats wrong?

@warc9  
Me.

@Holofan4life  
I guess not

@HighRollerHydra  
What happened?

@Tranquil Night  
I’m heavily flawed.

@HighRollerHydra  
“we’re not flawless, we’re work in progress we’ve got dents and we’ve got quirks but it’s our flaws that make us work, yeah”

I wish my 40+ friends were alive today.

@HighRollerHydra  
None of us are perfect.
 
I wish they where alive too.

Maybe this is a lesson I need to learn.

I’ll be fine, really.

@HighRollerHydra  
Ok. If you need to talk, just PM me.

FUCK
 
This mint lime kombucha has a lot of carbonation in it and I keep burping through my nose and it hurts like hell

@Rainboom Dash
 
You might try slowing down on drinking it, I never had that problem but I never drank that variety either and when I do drink Kombucha it’s usually (as of late anyway) 4 ounces a day.

@Rainboom Dash  
I always shake or rapidly stir my carbonated drinks before I drink them, because I do not like carbonation at all.

@Tranquil Night  
Hmm… maybe
 
But this is naturally carbonated… not sure if that’s different.. I guess I don’t see how it would be
 
 
But, yeah… I burped like 6 big burps when drinking that 12 fl ounce bottle… lolz…

Wtf…
 
My heart rate is 185 and I’m not even working out that hard
 
Idk what the fuck is going on.. I’m only working out at level 10 speed 60 instead of level 12 speed 60 and my heart rate is 10-15 higher even when working out less hard
 
sigh guess it’s just one of those days… meh
 
 
I was really hoping to get a decent workout in tonight but… not sure if a heart rate of 180-185 is good for 2 hours… I wanna get a full workout in and I want to work out decently but I might have to work out less hard tonight…
 
 
Okay.. I’ve been sitting for 2 minutes and my heart rate is still ~150
 
Wtf… idk what the fuck is going on D:
 
Might have to stop working out…
 
 
K… wtf… it’s been about 5 minutes and I’m just walking around at a slow pace and my heart rate is 130…. it should be about 100 doing that… even after working out 5 minutes ago

Fuck.. it’s been 2 days since I worked out… but my resting heart rate is 115-120 right now… and that’s sitting down
 
Walking around slowly it’s 125-130
 
Working out at a MODERATE intensity (which I consider to be a light intensity) it’s 180-185….
 
….

@Rainboom Dash
 
One thing is its bubbles are smaller. I’m not sure how else it’s different.

@BarryFromMars  
Yeah
 

 
Anyway, I was able to work out for 75 minutes… but my heart rate was like 175-185 the whole time and I wasn’t even working out that hard
 
sigh tomorrow should go better… hopefully..
 
I wanted to go close to 2 and a half hours today but I can’t/won’t with my heart rate this high…
 
I mean, I could go a little longer… maybe to 2 hours.. but I think stopping at 75 minutes for today is good.. I actually felt like I got a pretty decent workout in even though I was working out less hard

This fandom is the most depressing and unhealthy thing for someone like me. I’ve seen more bullies and ludicrously rude people in it out of any group I’ve been in. Here, if your depressed you’re automatically shunned and/or attacked for being different. If you happen to have a unique personality unlike any other, you’re also outcasted. You get the types who point fingers and get a mob of others to join in, ultimately making you the bad guy for something out of you control and not your intention. No attempts of help are given, because being depressed is like being dead. No one wants to help or cares about you enough to make you feel even the slightest welcome. Being depressed is being hurt by others, even when trying to fit in with the smallest of your ability to make it noticeable.
 
It’s a life not worth living, because you want to be alone, not because you want to but because you have to. You cannot fit in, and no one wants you to either because you’ll ruin their perfect creation of social ability with their inexperience in such a feeling.
 
Out of so many sites, this one is the worst. This one gives so many more reason for another to hate or attack a stranger they barely know other than that they’re depressed, and they don’t like them because of it. There are so many that hate someone and they’ve never even spoke to them before. It’s highly toxic behavior and I recommend anyone that is actually depressed almost on a daily basis to stay away from the fandom. Out of 4 pony sites, believe me. The young do not care who they hurt or what they say. It will only increase the sadness and make it worse the more you attempt to be happier with it.

I’ve noticed that dropping masturbation helps immensely with depression and especially with anxiety. Desperate times call for desperate measures.

People on this site are toxic as fuck. The same people are on the same threads and if anyone new like me comes along, bam - hate message time. Also no one ever discusses things as adult, it’s always to whine at someone that they don’t like them for dumb reasons. Otherwise no one says anything. If there is ever a cyberbully, it’s at least a handful of people on this site. Yet it’s perfectly fine to hate on someone. The only unfortunate thing is there is no block option, so you’re forced to mingle with these devilish and negative people who never say anything to you unless it’s an attack.