[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@rdibp  
I cuddle ponies, listen to music and go to work. My social life is zero.

@rdibp
 
It’s alright Dib, don’t worry, it already makes me feel better your wishes…

It’s depressing when it seems the only people that talk to me are the same ones that almost always have something snotty to say. It’s like a stalker thing.
 
It’s the only reason I wish blocking were an option. Because except them, the others are pretty decent.

I figured out my nausea problem is most likely because of a medicine I take to fight depression. So fml, I’ll probably be going off that if my psych okays it. Which I’ll be glad to get rid of the nausea but then I’ll probably be worse off in my mental state.

I got throw up all over the place and had to clean it up… yay
 
I think I got most of it…

I do not feel sad, but I feel like the present and my future are both pointless.

@Tranquil Night  
They are not pointless.

sigh
 
So much for rushing myself in shape
 
It’s going to be at least 3 to 4 weeks until I can do a long workout…
 
Ffs… Why can’t I just fucking workout anywhere… I’ve tried.. it has to be a certain machine.. like… Wtf….
 

 
I just… I just wanted a long workout before the trip.. but.. yeah…
 
The thing is, I don’t want to feel really weird from working out a bunch to not working out at all…. So I’m just going to stay at 90 min for now.. I won’t really be able to try to get in shape for 10 days… And then it’s going to take at least a few days to get back in the shape that I was before… And then another week or two before I can be in shape enough to do a long workout
 

 
Sigh
 

 
Why do I even bother on living… Idk….
 
What’s the point.. like… I mean… Idk…

Heh…..
 
Of course…
 
Another delay from my long workouts
 
Heh… I’m never going to have a long workout ever again..
 
I just figured out what life is doing to me… It’s torturing me… Getting in shape almost enough to do a long workout and then BOOM some shit happens and I fall back out of shape and repeat…..
 
 
Heh….
 
I should have fucking known
 
 
I… I’m sad :(
 
And hurt

@Rainboom Dash  
You will ok?
 
This is just a small set back.

@warc9  
‘small set back’
 
riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight
 
I’m really not sure if I am or not… the nap I took helped a LITTLE but I’m still feeling a little down

Am I good?

@Holofan4life  
What do you mean?

@Tranquil Night  
Am I a nice individual?

@Holofan4life  
From what I know about you, yes

@Holofan4life
 
What would make you think the opposite?

@TheAnonShy  
Paranoia and being insecure

So it seems that the guy known as “Positivity” from the Positivity Hypno community has committed suicide. So sad to see the owner of the hypo community go like that…

@Chaotic Mind  
That is horrible. My condolences to his family.

@Agent Luna  

 
That’s two more than I can do, hope that doesn’t make mine -2 or something.  
On an unrelated note, are you interested in fields like astronomy, biology, cybernetics, neural networks or the like? I’ve been for a while but every time I binge it only ends up adding to the haphazard pile of data (some of which is eventually forgotten) because the more I read the more I realize I know jack shit and it becomes more and more overwhelming == discouraging. Want to try doing this together? Like we can make a separate thread or something. Worse comes to worst you’ll have a thread at least a few others are bound to be interested in.

Hello :(

sigh
 
I think I’m addicting to singing
 
I mean… I probably sing an hour or two a day on average…. idk if I’d call that an unhealthy addiction… although, if I’m too tired to sing and I want to sing then I feel depressed… so…. I think it’s an addiction :/
 
Like I’ve sung for about 3 hours so far today but I want to sing more but I’m too tired and I just feel pretty ‘meh’ right now… I just really want to sing…
 
Maybe after my workout I’ll wake up a bit for at least an hour or two
 
 
I tried singing earlier but um… I was really tired and I didn’t do very good…
 
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B1_qfl2IS3NdWGY1Y3Z3TC1ENms/view?usp=sharing
 
Yeah, it’s… not very good…
 
I mean…. it’s not terrible but… I was just so fucking tired… and still am pretty tired…
 
I mean.. I think for it to count it you have to within half a semitone… so… it counted a lot of parts…
 
But even on parts it counts if I don’t sing it right it still sounds off… I can usually tell within at least a third, maybe even a quarter of a semitone while singing… it’s a little hard… it’s a LOT easier when listening back to it…
 
And it’s a lot more than pitch… it’s how you sing it

right now, I am crying hard now :(

@Nupie The Hero  
Hi there. Remember that whatever it is, it will pass. Things will get better. Maybe if you talk about the cause you’ll feel better. If you’re comfortable with it, of course. Don’t be discouraged by slow responses - it’s fairly late in US time zones and there doesn’t seem to be many posters outside of Americas here.

@Nupie The Hero  
Let it all out. It’s okay. hugs