However, it is quite curiously baffling why he isn't suicidal. Because most in his shoes would have considered doing the... you know. I'm not advocating this in any way. But after observing the behaviors of many who are seemingly likeminded as him. It usually ends up with them offing themselves, maybe even taking some others with them in the process.
I'm rather impressed that he still thinks life is even worth living considering the state of his. Never has he ever expressed any, zil, suicidal thoughts in his life.