Vent thread

There’s a thin line between expressing your own opinion and actually contributing useful news, damn this human nature.

@Myoozik  
They said “the characters look the same” and that they wanted me to submit artwork that “looked different.”
 
(sigh) Of course.

Holy fucking shit. I’ve never been a bright person, but this latest fuckup is truly epic even in my books. Holy fuck.
 
Someone here should I dunno, permaban me and delete everything I’ve ever posted here as a punishment. I fucking deserve it. No, I couldn’t even read the simplest possible instructions before fucking up.
 
I just can’t believe how utterly stupid I am. Again. There is no help for me. Just failure. Failure. Failure. Failure. Until the end. I’m already on the edge because of everything going on in my life and now this.
 
FUCK

@JP  
…What?

@JP  
…
 
I’m sorry, what?

@JP  
What?

It’s good to know that no matter how bad a time you’re having there’s always someone getting it worse than you.

Other people wasted their Fridays (they weren’t even supposed to be at work today) waiting for me to show up and then I can’t even do that. Because I can’t read instructions. I can’t check the fucking schedule. They waited there, for hours, for me. And no, I could not do even that correctly. They went back home and I embarrassed myself, again. Now I have to wait until Monday to fix this. I will never ever ever ever go back to that part of the city again once I go there on Monday.
 
It was the final fucking straw. I can’t take it. Everything has gone fucking hell in the past four weeks. Not a single happy thing has happened to me except the Preehub thing, that was fun. I don’t remember the last time I’ve slept a full night without worrying or being too angry.
 
I’m sorry. I’m a fucking useless emotional wreck. I worry about irrelevant things. I spend more time reminiscing about what was, than planning how to make the future better.

@JP  
It’ll pass. Whatever you’re feeling right now will pass and you wil feel better.
 
Nothing lasts, good or bad. Keep picking yourself back up and look out for your own self interest. If you’re so unhappy that it’s starting to affect your physical and mental health, perhaps it’s time to make some changes in your life.

I had my final entrance physical for the police force and tore a muscle in my quad during the Illinois agility test and failed it by less then a second. Over a year of prep, passed the psyche, aptitude, interview, first physical and I screw it up by overtraining for two weeks straight before the final test.
 
They’re giving me a second chance in a few weeks when a doctor can confirm my leg is better, so it’s not over yet. All that’s standing between me and the academy is 8 microseconds.
 
Still, it’s a massive mind screw that Trying too hard and pushing myself past my limits actually screwed me over.
 
You have to train smart as well as hard.

@Terminal Red  
It’s just that I disappointed so many people today. It was a simple, done deal, paid in advance and all. And I didn’t show up until two hours after it was over. By then it was too late, everyone had left. And they even sent me a reminder to show up. I read it but I still fucked up.
 
Just like everything else I do. A failure.
 
And a week from now, there’s going to be another set of failures. I know it already. Something will fail and then I’m stuck with so many problems it’ll take months to sort them out. If they can be sorted out. I’m so insanely afraid.

@JP  
Was it just a hangout?

@JP  
You sound like a pussy. Deal with it like a man. Accept it, deal with the consequences, apologize and move on. Everyone is afraid but you’re only a loser if you let it stop you.
 
You’re going to screw up again. Probably many times. That’s life. Don’t stop, keep learning, improving and moving foward. If you hate yourself and call yourself a failure then you make it true.

@Mikey  
No, I actually went there to get some important things, only to find the doors locked. Only then I realized how badly I screwed up.
 
@Terminal Red  
I call myself a failure because I am a failure.

@JP  
Well like Terminal said, you gotta move past it or you’ll never learn.

@JP
 
I’ m probably just a broken record of the bunch in here, but I agree with Mikey and Terminal Red; you gotta admit your mistake, learn from it, apologize/make up for it, and keep going ahead in life, getting stuck on a past error like you’re doing right now it’s only going to make everything worse in the long run.
 
I’ve been on the same situation where I just made a colossal clusterfuck of a mistake and i felt terrible about it. But I found out that I just needed to learn and go forward instead of fixating on it and provoking self hate.

A commission I paid fifty bucks for got deleted.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
I need to hook you up with another art for all the cool stuff you gave me.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
Ouch,did you have it saved,at least?

@Dex Stewart  
Unfortunately no, I thought it was safe on here.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
If it was here long enough Twibooru or Ponybooru may have imported it.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
Do you not still have the file saved?

@Penguin Dragneel  
They’re probably the same parents who watched the Hanna-Barbera cartoons when they were kids and thought nothing of it despite most of the characters being the same.
 
Either way, if they didn’t clarify on what they mean by “different”, then it’s best of you ignore them cause clearly they weren’t trying to give you advice on how to improve.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  

 
Which work specifically was this?

@ЅℰℒᎯℙℋℐℰℒ  
It was Rarity with a fourteen inch Desert Eagle.