[Copied & slightly edited from my Twitter thread]
2020. That year was wild - and not in a good way: the WW3 scare, Australia was still on fire (literally), death of Kobe Bryant, death of my beloved grandmother - and that was before the world went into shit we’re in right now thanks to coronavirus pandemic.
This year made me feel more anxious, feel more lonely, and declined my sanity a little. To top it all, it feels I drew less in this year and it seems I procrastinated a lot. If these didn’t happen for the rest of the year, I wouldn’t create this fucking account on Twitter
in the first place.
Speaking of drawing, I couldn’t find time for it, either because of what I said earlier, or because of college. I’ll be honest - I’m a slacker, mostly because some subjects we’re having aren’t based on my interests (and to top it all, I hate math).
Even worse is that I feel my art has declined in quality - I mentioned in “my patience post
that I feel most recent artworks I drew seem rushed and thus they don’t get popular as before. Seem I’ve became the victim of pride, wanting to be popular as other artists.
2020 was also the year of dramas in Brony fandom - from infamous Applejack’s plantation, to much gut punching dark discovery of one of my favorite artists (not gonna tell their name). It was insane, that’s actually sad.
Moreover I’ve been sick with coronavirus a while ago (to which I thankfully recovered), that made the situation, motivation and my sanity worse than I had before infection. By the time I’m writing this, my quarantine ended, but still the damage has been done.
I hope for improvement in 2021. The years 2018-19 were already a disappointment for me, but 2020 took the whole fucking cake of suckery.