Today I got scammed as I went to a Facebook job just to get instant extra money. I instead payed, and these bastards demanded too much before they would return the money.
I am scared that Mom will ban me from using my bank account and take away my card, just to protect me from scammers. She had this horrible attitude after losing thousands of dollars to scammers earlier. I don’t want to waste days waiting for her to decide when I spend on book promotions or other things, as she is very busy with her work and debt.
I also don’t want to be too reliant on her, as she only gives me money to buy groceries or eat lunch and dinner at work.
Sometimes I hate her for her stingy, desperate attitude, not allowing me to spend more money on book ads to enhance my book sales, or even enjoy Starbucks or trips to shopping malls just to save my/her money. She just wants me to waste away being “safe”, being a safe nobody who becomes famous after a few years and spends all day working and eating with no ambition.
Shame on her. I would rather be selfish and successful than to live in fear of extremely paranoid parents. And I am worried that she will take away my salary for my work just to “protect me” or finish her debt.
This is also why I am not a Christian - even though I do stupid things out of fear, I something worry that Jesus orchestrates disasters to force me to repent and worship Him.