Oh man, I went to Alcholics Anonymous, and Narcotics Anonymous. Narcotics Anonymous is fucking crazy, a lot are unsavable, permanent dependence disorder (they depend on the drug or familiars for an excuse, to avoid facing the truth). Alcoholics Anonymous I can mostly relate to. I was not even thinking about alcohol, but AA made me want a drink more than anything.
I’m going to rewrite the twelve steps, so that it applies to life. Without using the word alchohol or god. Until then, if you have a problem, go to AA if you have to. They only use the word alcohol once, and the word god a couple of times, replace ‘god’ with ‘prosocial intention’.
You only need three steps. Self Honesty, Responsibility, and Science. Fuck all that religion shit, gods real, but putting words in gods mouth isn’t real.
It’s easy to say you have a substance problem. It’s hard to say you have a behavioral problem.
It’s easy to say “the alcohol has made me helpless”. It’s hard to say “a flaw in my personality has made me helpless”
I hate AA, and NA. I smile and listen, because everyone is trying their best. But I don’t raise my hand, because nobody is ready for, or capable of handling that.
I don’t care if I get banned, my life is over, I’ll save as many people as i can on my way out.
I’m drinking right now. It’s not about abstinence, it’s about reducing risk. My risk are low, my life is already worth nothing, a small amount couldn’t make anything worst. I had to hit rock bottom to figure this out, you guys can slow down or stop before you hit rock bottom.
I’m virtue signalling about my own issues. Some people are fine with a just a drink a day. If alcohol is not causing you great harm, than never mind me.