I have come back again with another series of conflicting feelings. No matter what I do, no matter what I say, I just can’t seem to feel much of anything, even sadness. This only became a problem a few months ago, so I’m not sure what it could be. I am severely depressed due to how much of a failure I am, so maybe that is a factor. I feel like nothing I can do or say will make this feel any different. I barely even feel anything physical anymore, even though I should. Example, I know if something is hot or cold. I don’t know whether I’ll get frostbite or burns from touching something, even if I do touch it. Only after the fact is when I’d know. Another example, I can feel emotional love, whether giving or receiving. I don’t know how to properly show said feelings, even if I somehow manage to feel them. I don’t even know if I matter anymore, or anything else. I’m ready to end this torment that is my life. Got nothing to lose, nothing to gain.