[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@Background Pony #7285  
Uh… what are you on about

@Derpy Whooves  
Maybe I should do that…start a new life…get rid of this one…let someone else have it.

Don’t give up.

not sure if id be alive today if it wasnt for events of the past year. but i still feel aimless and confused on what to do with my self. maybe if my brain worked in a different way id be able to do something with my life.  
i need to find some motivation in life cause its not going to end well for me other wise.

Maybe I’ll just drink myself to death, I’m off to a good start.

Someone make a part 2 of this where Starlight gives Trixie a hug and heals her wound. :(
 

What is the best way to deal with traitors?

I’m too drunk

is it worth trying to make something out of this life?  
i wonder how long will it take to be happy enough with my life. maybe the point is to just be completely numb to it all, and float on by.

@Gameplay The Pony  
Please don’t post things that look like gun violence here. Good intentions or not.
 
 
@Background Pony #6048  
Even a loser can live a content peaceful life.

It sucks having lost so much there is no longer any direction in your life. With nobody to blame but myself.
 
Starts with an ego conflict, then banned from a Discord server, can’t let it go until I’m ostracized from the whole community. I join new communities and can’t even talk, like the air has been crushed from my metaphorical lungs.
 
Got dropped from my tech class.
 
I keep saying I’m going to draw this and that, can’t do it, can’t afford the refunds, even if I do the work I’ll never have work from those people again.
 
There is a singular love in my life, and quite frankly she deserves way more than me.
 
My incredulous ego has cost me so much, but it’s one of my only friends. I mean I have great wonderful friends here, but they deserve better than me.
 
Having lost so much and constantly making things worst for myself feels like drowning, flailing my arms as hard as I can I just can’t keep my head above water.
 
I listen to this bubble pop and dancing, my body responds, I feel good, but executively I’m miserable.
 
I will try to let go of things, and persist on my physical health. I feel like things will come around, I’m happy to put them into context. I hope to just find peace in the end, and rectify with those who have helped me so much.
 
I’ve found peace letting go of my ego, it still appears to be there because it has been my defence mechanism my entire life. I wonder if fake courage and the appearance of hope could become real, or if it will just keep people from helping me.
 
Atleast I’m not in pain, and I can sleep contently on a simple meal. I just want to do my friends right.

@Ninji  
I never wanted anything from you, it makes me happy to help someone who appreciates it.
 
You’ve occupied my time and gave me a reason to keep living, that is more than I can ask for.

@Ninji  
You been a source of inspiration to me, m8. You also been the best kinda person to your m8s and they will appreciate it.  
I wish you find peace somehow. And maybe fake courage and the appearance of hope do become real.
 
Bloke like you, you’ve got the heart to make things right for yer m8s and if nothing else, you’ve got that going 4U.
 
Be with peace, Ninji. I wish you as much of it as possible.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ
 
@tehwatever  
I appreciate both of you. I thought about you two before either of you said anything.
 
I’m healthy and have good friends.
 
There is decent people who aren’t going to like me for god knows what, maybe things I screwed up and can’t fix. No hard feelings to them.
 
I got a lot of drawing done after all that ranting.
 
Thank you Badheart and Tehwhatever. I want people to know both of you have been selfless and kind to me with more than just words.

Does anyone know this feeling when the body’s own chemistry is completely freaking out and the head is unable to decide which inner appeal it should focus on first? When it tingles under your skin, endorphins are meaninglessly ejected, just so that you can lie in bed with pain in your arms and legs at the end of the day.
 
Anyway, I took a week off today before I killed someone in this mood.

You know, I once again wonder what the point of drawing and uploading here is. There’s way better stuff on the site.

@Gameplay The Pony  

One of my mother’s parrots passed away almost a week ago, but now she finally stopped neglecting the other one and treats him like a real pet.
 
I don’t know how to feel about this.

@Gameplay The Pony  
pretty much what Meanlucario posted. Keep drawing and keep posting, m8!

I knew she was fake…did I listen? Of-fucking-course not! Hah…who was I kidding, anyways? Only myself, I reckon…why did I want her so much, when all she did was draw art for her friends and hang out with no-life sons of bitches? I guess I chased her because she played me and my pals like a fiddle…now, she no longer needs us. So, we are worthless. You know what’s worse? I let her come between me and my two bestest friends in the whole world…one of them is almost guaranteed to be my lover. I hurt them because she played me like a violin… now they hate me…now I truly am alone…by myself…I want to just die already…

The girl next door is getting laid.
 
How dare I even exist.

Looks like it’s my turn to be Santa Claus.

Hugs?

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
I’ll leave milk and cookies out for you.  
With a bottle of scotch.

@KolpSlack  
I’ll take the scotch if Celestia leaves me any.