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[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)
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Background Pony #6048
i guess i know how fucking stupid i am. i cant fucking believe i went through two months for fucking nothing. why couldn’t it just let me have this one thing.
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Ribbon Wielder
The 14th of this day just makes me wanna kill myself all over again. couples get the chance of mooching others left n right and making people single jealous. thats the main point i guess. i still actually miss self harming. haven’t gotten around to it in 2 months. nothing feels right, and now my ex gf past is coming back again. ugh. i’ll try to do something tonight. harming myself or not, i’ll do something to make it right.
but if someone told me to eat somewhere else because their couple wants to eat where i’m sitting and had a attitude, i would’ve said “fine, take it. i felt like killing myself anyways to be rid of this life.“
but if someone told me to eat somewhere else because their couple wants to eat where i’m sitting and had a attitude, i would’ve said “fine, take it. i felt like killing myself anyways to be rid of this life.“
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Writer and Voice actor!
@DDavy
I’m sorry that i wasn’t here in time..! I hope you didn’t hurt yourself..! :(
It isn’t the end of the world…I’m single too. It shouldn’t bother you. Sure it’s nice to hold a hand and cuddle and such, but you shouldn’t harm yourself over an even that comes ONCE every YEAR…It’s not even worth it.
Self harming may relieve some negative feelings but it will impact you severely in a negative way. You are not thin paper. Don’t cut. I know you feel it will help but in reality it will harm you more. Don’t harm yourself over this runnish problem….I can help you. Try to talk to me in Dms, Please?
Also, for the last thing, Well, it’s okay to say fine, take it…But you shouldn’t say that other bit. When people announce their going to kill themselves/want to kill themselves, mainly people will think they are attention seeking, but if you are legitimately reaching out for help, talk to a doctor, a therapist, the crisis hotline…I suggest those because i know that some people’s families are not helpful/influence the feeling. Trust me. I highly suggest the Crisis hotline. If you don’t like to talk, you can text them. They help. Trust me. They helped me stay alive!
Here’s a number…
1-800-273-8255
Here’s their page if needed: Suicide Prevention Web
I’m sorry that i wasn’t here in time..! I hope you didn’t hurt yourself..! :(
It isn’t the end of the world…I’m single too. It shouldn’t bother you. Sure it’s nice to hold a hand and cuddle and such, but you shouldn’t harm yourself over an even that comes ONCE every YEAR…It’s not even worth it.
Self harming may relieve some negative feelings but it will impact you severely in a negative way. You are not thin paper. Don’t cut. I know you feel it will help but in reality it will harm you more. Don’t harm yourself over this runnish problem….I can help you. Try to talk to me in Dms, Please?
Also, for the last thing, Well, it’s okay to say fine, take it…But you shouldn’t say that other bit. When people announce their going to kill themselves/want to kill themselves, mainly people will think they are attention seeking, but if you are legitimately reaching out for help, talk to a doctor, a therapist, the crisis hotline…I suggest those because i know that some people’s families are not helpful/influence the feeling. Trust me. I highly suggest the Crisis hotline. If you don’t like to talk, you can text them. They help. Trust me. They helped me stay alive!
Here’s a number…
1-800-273-8255
Here’s their page if needed: Suicide Prevention Web
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Dashiefluffywaifu
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@DDavy
Aww Im so sorry you feel this way, I havent had anyone a day in my life I know exactly how that feels, which is why I hide at home
Aww Im so sorry you feel this way, I havent had anyone a day in my life I know exactly how that feels, which is why I hide at home
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Ribbon Wielder
forget it. i just wont bother talking. i’d rather harm myself normally..if people say i want attention, let em say it. i’ll just keep harming myself over and over. i already have scars on my arm that aren’t going to go away anyways.
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Reborn Reject
@Flutter_Lover
I hate myself, too.
I wonder why I’m still alive after all the shit that I have gone through.
I hate myself, too.
I wonder why I’m still alive after all the shit that I have gone through.
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Voidhead
There are times that inevitably make something better.
Whether it’s planned or random, it comes. It’s pretty abstract as to how it happens but it will.
Whether it’s planned or random, it comes. It’s pretty abstract as to how it happens but it will.
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About to shoot up some black tar in hopes I die from it.
Tired of living in this shit.
Tired of living in this shit.
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What happened to those other opioid pills you had?
Kolp you never just talk anymore unless it’s trying to scare people. You need help but I can’t, that’s just observation not spite
Kolp you never just talk anymore unless it’s trying to scare people. You need help but I can’t, that’s just observation not spite
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In digital purgatory
@KolpSlack
Then it sounds like you got a party. Get fucking high and try to make a plan where you don’t want to kill yourself all the time.
Then it sounds like you got a party. Get fucking high and try to make a plan where you don’t want to kill yourself all the time.
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Reborn Reject
@Ninji
Why would I do that? I’m kind of done with life…if you must know, everything I say has some sort of meaning behind it. I wish to be happy and I’m hoping these drugs will help me out but I’m too fucked up to really coherently think about it; as in…not sure if anything will change. If I could feel good about shit I probably wouldn’t be fucked up right now.
Why would I do that? I’m kind of done with life…if you must know, everything I say has some sort of meaning behind it. I wish to be happy and I’m hoping these drugs will help me out but I’m too fucked up to really coherently think about it; as in…not sure if anything will change. If I could feel good about shit I probably wouldn’t be fucked up right now.
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In digital purgatory
@KolpSlack
Maybe it’s just too much. You have to jerk all the drugs away in pain, you can taper it down.
Do you hate job or lack of?
There is so many things to learn everyday. I’ve tried to take an experimental approach to figure out what works for me, and it was a long time where some people thought I was hopeless, but I kept sticking to my experiments and I got away from most of the bad shit.
Maybe it’s just too much. You have to jerk all the drugs away in pain, you can taper it down.
Do you hate job or lack of?
There is so many things to learn everyday. I’ve tried to take an experimental approach to figure out what works for me, and it was a long time where some people thought I was hopeless, but I kept sticking to my experiments and I got away from most of the bad shit.
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