[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

altopony

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I'm realizing things that I haven't realized before. I never had any friends. I've been tortured by everyone and few people who pretended to like me took advantage of me at the first possible occasion and then kicked me off. I have no control over anything whether it is practicing, working or drinking. I might just attempt to kill myself and not even know about it. Everyone is against me and therefore I am against myself.
Ninji
My Little Pony - 1992 Edition
Friendship, Art, and Magic (2020) - Took part in the 2020 Community Collab
The Magic of Friendship Grows - For helping others attend the 2020 Community Collab
Artist -

@Altopony
Well try to be the friend that you need anyway. Statically people suck and don't know it.

Our hunter gatherer lives are changing faster than our brains can't deal. I'm not great with impulse either. I'm averaging 6 hours of YouTube a day lately. My limbic system thinks all this Youtube is good for me, my outer brain knows something is wrong. I'm back to fighting myself.

Maybe control is just an illusion. I always feel like I hate life, but I'm scared to die. What a wonderful fucked up balence that nobody in this world prepares you for. Fear is penultimate driving force of life, only succeeded by pure impulse.
Ninji
My Little Pony - 1992 Edition
Friendship, Art, and Magic (2020) - Took part in the 2020 Community Collab
The Magic of Friendship Grows - For helping others attend the 2020 Community Collab
Artist -

@Altopony
I never said anyone would be nice to you in return.

We don't get that guarantee. I just thought you'd feel good about yourself if you did the right thing regardless.
KolpSlack
My Little Pony - 1992 Edition

Reborn Reject
Oh goodness…not again…I've fallen, but not in the literate sense. I feel crumby. It's late at night and I feel
like I want to harm myself so I can feel something. My paranoia is skyrocketing and I am starting to think of things…I feel like I am alone. I want to feel alone by myself, but at the same time, I'd enjoy company every once in a while. I hate myself for everything that I'm worth and I want to just do myself in so I won't feel depressed. My paranoia won't stop. I keep thinking things I don't like. I'm starting to think that maybe I am just destined to be disliked and hated. Everyone I meet and everything I have never wants to stay. They say they do, but they turn on me. I'm so sick of this. Fuck the booze and fuck these pills, it doesn't even help anymore.
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Friendship, Art, and Magic (2020) - Took part in the 2020 Community Collab

Ꮖɦɛ Ꮖɛxǟռ.
I'll tell ya somethin'…

There was one pissed off demon in my room, I put some sea salt across my door and they were gone after appearing before me.

I left that rat infested shit hole I lived in and moved to a decent house.

There was these shadows down the hall. I just watched…they tried to get me.

What pisses me off the most? I don't know what they did to the dog.
Ninji
My Little Pony - 1992 Edition
Friendship, Art, and Magic (2020) - Took part in the 2020 Community Collab
The Magic of Friendship Grows - For helping others attend the 2020 Community Collab
Artist -

@KolpSlack
I don't hate you.

I don't know what you did, but talking like that people will think you did something.

I've been deceptive and petty. I can feel guilty for plenty of wasted time and money.

We have to do more than try to do good things we have to good things, because our intentions don't matter, only our actions do.


@Badheart
You think the salt makes a barrier like an insulator?
KolpSlack
My Little Pony - 1992 Edition

Reborn Reject
@Ninji
Sometimes there is less I can do and more others can do, it seems…taking the initiative has never really been my strong field, but sometimes I just get worn out with it all…I'm sure you're not so bad.
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