[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@Moodibear <3
You could use some time off, deary…for what it's worth, I'll talk to you whenever I can. That sucks having everyone dislike you and I hope you can find a safe haven one of these days. At least you're not me, whom has absolutely nobody to talk to, emotional issues, has absolutely nothing to do but just sit here and widdle away until someone comes and scoops my sorry ass up to get something productive done. It's like I don't even matter to anyone.

@KolpSlack
Thank you…I've been under alot of emotional stress lately. It hurts when there's no one to support you.

I should die early, for I'm all negative

@Flutter_Lover
No. Please no. 😨

When people are around me that need cheering up, just ask…

@KolpSlack
Ive been here the whole time xd

I'm just a punching bag taking all the hits. I keep getting ridiculed and being left emotionally drained afterwards, and the sad thing is that I feel nothing but sheer guilt for being in this predicament. If I talk to my mom about why I have no money and tell her that my friend had a rough weekend and is in need of money, I'll be a bad friend to him because he made a promise that this stays between the both of us. I just want all of this to be resolved!

@Flutter_Lover
*hugs*
I'm sorry about that.

I still see him.

I can still hear his labored breathing on that damn machine.

Watching him waste away.

Unable to move.

He looked at me and mouthed that he was proud of me.

Happy that I was in trade school and doing well.

He knew the terrible things I've done.

But he still loved me.

He forgave me.

He still loved me.

He was proud of me.

He loved me.

He loves me.

Why did he have to go?

Why did he die?

He loved me.

He said it so much.

He loves me.

But now he's dead.

He's buried in the dirt with a headstone.

I still put flowers there.

He loved me.

Why did you take him away?

It's my fault.

This is all my fault.

He loved me.

Punishment.

You took him away.

Youhatemehelovedmebutyoustillhatemethisisyourfaultthisismyfaultihateyousomuchhelovedme.

I'm tired.

He loves me.

I don't want to feel anymore.

This is my fault.

He's gone.

Punishment.

He loved me.

I'm through living.

Goodbye.

He said he was proud.

He loved me.

I miss you.

Just no point to any effort I've made in life, it gets nowhere and I get nothing from it, just a waste of time and effort. Why try, why did I ever try? What did it ever get me? Just constant memories and pain from all the struggles and as always, I'm the one that suffers from it.

@LightningBolt
hug

Is there at least one person who joined the Brony community that wasn't from having a shit life?

@JasonRatana
I found out about MLP via porn and memes.

@LightningBolt
Well there is some things people can't take from you.

You're healthy, intelligent, and you have creative talents. A lot of people would sell their souls for all that.


@JasonRatana
I was commissioned to draw princess luna before watching the first episode of FiM. Before then I kinda knew it was a toy thing like HeMan.

Before the Ticket Master I knew I had to stop to go get drugs, which started one of the greatest benders of my life.

@Ninji
Thanks. That does help a little.

@LightningBolt
💓

@LightningBolt
You're still allowed to be frustrated and dissatisfied, I just hope it's not too detrimental to your wellbeing

@Ninji
Emotional scars just sometimes hurt too much.

im still not feeling right.
the past month has been interesting, its so off from the norm my brain is having troubles handling it.
all its done was give me more anxiety. and show how crap i am.
wish i could stomach the alcohol in the fridge, cause i want to get fucked up.

@LightningBolt
I think some of the worst scars become a part of our identity. Sometimes when things break they grow back stronger, sometimes they decay and are never the same again.


@Background Pony #434A
How much have you been drinking lately?

I did half gallon a day for 4 days. It warped my world. Something was wrong, my poop was white, I was hallucinating and got cold terrible shakes. I remember walking to the store to get beer to remedy the shakes and the road felt wobbly and I couldn't read the street signs.

@Ninji
pretty much none. haven't been intoxicated for over a year. only tried a few weeks ago and all it did was make me ill. drinking isnt my cup of tea. always had issues keeping it down when i did drink. so i guess i wont have to worry about becoming an alcoholic.

what id really liked to do is drop acid again, but i cant get it any more and i don't have the money for it. its been atleast 2 years since i had it. my favorite highs was on that stuff.

@Background Pony #434A
I was speaking of my past to be empathetic. Honestly fuck liquor. Beer is ok I guess. I mean most people probally do better with liquor than I do.

I feel like acid changed my life in profound ways. I've been a little high and more relaxed ever since. I'm pretty sure I'm a god doctor now.

What I want to find is molly. MDMA. I hear it gives motivation, complacency and wholeness instead of being a straight dopamine trap like MA.

Getting these things are hard, then you got to test them. I'd rather just have some weed here and there honestly.

@Ninji
actually started smoking pot again. its still not the high im looking for. probably not strong enough idk. hasn't done much for me.

I'm horrible with friends.

@Flutter_Lover
No you're not. You were just having a bad day.