[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@Ninji
Don't…

@Badheart
There is a lot medicine out there, it's not all snorting painkillers and vodka

They had me on an atypical anti phychotic, but I have a hard time believing I'm phychotic.

I felt like I was put on something just for the fuck it so I stopped taking it.

@Ninji
I'll stick to black rum.

@Badheart
That's one hell of a way to do things.

I drink out of boredom randomly and make myself sad.

That's just hard malt, I haven't done liquor in a long time

@TempFizzle
You… You don't know how Syntax works, do you?

@TempFizzle
They were trying to make ^sup text and screwed up the syntax. As I said, do not make public accusations. Use reports. This could have been resolved privately without potentially causing further issues to unrelated people.

One heck way you mean.

I'm pissed.

@Badheart
We have the vent thread for anger. This thread is mostly for sad.

You're all right as always, I'm a piece of garbage. Nobody is there for me. Even now, I feel blood clots pumping through my chest. To hell with heaven, my life was for nothing.

@Scrabbleman
You would have stabbed me in the neck and I'll never forget that, go to hell.

Always stuck being wrong and blamed and left confused and depressed at the outcome. I feel like an idiot, like a stupid retarded idiot, and trying to even get a little bit of sympathy is bad, wrong, trying to play the victim, so I always just suck it up and I suffer as a result, and do things get better? No, not for long at least. Just stuck suffering and being at fault.

@Badheart
Yeah, I would. Hahaha. :D

@Background Pony #B664
If it helps, consider the source. The people who were shitting on you are themselves largely shit — I don't think that those are the kind of people you should be listening to. Many of them don't seem to have even the slightest concept of empathy.

@Scrabbleman
Dude, what is your problem? Is your goal wanting everyone to hate you? Because it's working. I'm seriously starting to think that this depression thread, along with the vent thread, has extremely died, because now we're insulting each other, which is extremely predictably childish and immature nowadays. I thought we were suppose to help each other or encourage each other, or maybe even cheer each other up. But no. This thread has definitely turned into a bully thread, or an insult each other thread, or a make each other feel worse or feel bad thread, or even a let's be assholes to each other thread.

I think I finally understand why I left this thread.

There is definitely jabs and misplaced anger. A lot of times I don't know what's going on so I don't say anything

@Shylover
Dude, I already hate myself. No one in the world can hate me more than me because I'm the only one who knows how much of an ass I am.

At one point in your life, you'll reach a certain level of depression and achieve pure apathy. I hit mine over a year ago when I contemplated suicide. Like, literal suicide. None of that "I'm gonna kill myself boo hoo" bullshit people say online for attention. Once you reach this point, you'll stop caring about what everyone says and do shit your own way.

And I've already decided. If I'm gonna be treated as a supervillain, I'm gonna be the best goddamn supervillain there is.

@Scrabbleman
Shut up. Don't you ever mention any of that stupid shit from me. And by the way, that totally explains why you are an asshole, and why you are always treated like a villain. Because you hate yourself. I don't care what you say about me. You don't know me. And you don't know what it's like to have autism or even mental illness. It's a nightmare. I'm 22 years old, and I still have no job or anything to do, and I am suffering from loneliness nowadays, because of my damn anxiety. But enough about me. I've had enough with your bullshit. You are the worst person on this site. A troll. A duck. Who has no friends. All you ever care about is yourself. No one else. You want to be in eternal darkness forever? Go right ahead. No one's stopping you. Go ahead and hate yourself for the rest of your life. Because you have made everyone and even me on this site treating you like a villain. You're not a villain. Don't act like you are one. You're an asshole. And I'm not talking to you anymore. I'm done with you. This is now my final and last message by talking to you. So goodbye. And enjoy your miserable sad life.

@Shylover
Bye. See you around. Let's hope we never see each other again because honestly, it's the best for the two of us.

Also, just a little surprise here. I'm also a 22-year old with autism and anxiety who has no job. It's the reason why I don't like you. Because you're just like me and yet, so obviously not.

To be frank, I'm actually afraid of you. You are the one person I'm afraid of becoming.

@Scrabbleman
………………………………..

^What……?

@Shylover
… Look, I'm sorry for saying those things. It's just, we obviously don't get along. You don't like me because let's be honest, I'm an ass. And I don't like you because well, I'm afraid of you.

That's the truth. I am horrified of you. We are both from the same generation with the same problems and yet somehow our lives are so drastically different. How we deal with our problems is drastically different.

I'm sorry I got personal with you. Every time you bring up how you're a 22-year old autistic person with life problems, it scares me.

You scare me. I used to think I just find you grating when we first argued a long time ago but now I find out why.

Sorry, you were right. I am a dick. I'll just leave.

@Scrabbleman
No don't. I'm the one who should be sorry. I made you like this. I guess I should leave you alone. You deserve better. But me, I don't. Because I treated you badly. And it's all my fault. I'm so sorry. I guess I should suffer from loneliness forever. You deserve better, and so does everyone else. But not me. You were right about me. And I'm just gonna let myself suffer, forever alone. I'm sorry. :'(

@Shylover
No no, that's not right either. I've accepted the fact that I'm not a good person. You, on the hand, haven't and honestly shouldn't. You're emotional, loud and sometimes annoying but you're not a bad person.

Nobody deserves to be alone. I know what that's like and I wouldn't wish it to even my worst enemies.

Jesus.

I tried. I've been staring at this shit speechless for almost an hour.


This thread is full of people's deepest insecurities. One hell of a place to rip into people.