Take pride. 🌈
@Agent Luna
Think what you want about this sentence, but I know what it is like to experience a major depression, and I hope that you get better. I only experienced it for about two years, and I know that I could not have coped for it any longer. If I did not get better, I would have most likely “attempted suicide” if I had to experience it for another year. I would not have actually tried to kill myself, but I would have maimed myself in a manner that I knew would not kill myself. I can remember searching for suicide success statistics with various weapons, choosing a likely nonlethal one, debating whether or not to commit to it, typing a “suicide” note on this website, and preparing to send it, close my browser, and then admit what I had done.
I never actually accomplished this. I asked for help, and two years later, I wonder how it got this bad. I am better now, but I sometimes feel minor depression which accompanies boredom.
I personally attribute my key to getting better as my medications. SSRIs were incompatible with me because they had no effect on me due to a certain gene that I have, which I discovered through a simple oral DNA swabbing test. It took me the usage of an SNRI (not an SSRI) and an antipsychotic to respectively help with my mood and thoughts, and I then got better.
I would recommend talking to a therapist about how you feel because should only hospitalize you if they believe that you have a plan for suicide. If you do not have a specific plan, you are not a direct harm to yourself. If you can afford it, I woupd also recommend a psychiatrist.
If you want to delete your account, you have the ultimate say in whether or not it happens, and I believe that a moderator performs your wish. However, you may regret this choice.
I am going to miss you if you go.
