[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@xXSleep Deprived ArtistXx  
Worry about you first, then maybe he might feel different in the future.
 
If they don’t want to talk to you, the best way to show them respect is to not mess with them, I’m sure you have other things to do right now.
 
Don’t attack people, or your life could be decided for you.
 
Do you live with him? How did he just show up?

Man, porno fucks people up.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
How?

@xXSleep Deprived ArtistXx  
Give yourself time to recover and lick your wounds. Little by little, things will be easier with each baby step. One step at a time.

@xXSleep Deprived ArtistXx  
talking service blocks and bans dont stop me, look at my discord..  
since you know them in person, meet them in person.

@KolpSlack  
Oxytocin is our worst enemy.
 
Pornography is good for increasing the bond between couples, but it will only make you depressed if you’re alone.

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
ive wanked off many times, i dont feel depressed lol?

@Slingring  
This is why I can’t say anything.

We all learn slowly i guess, thanks anon.

… you could like pull your finger off the trigger for just a second

Dark…..
 
I miss you bro

@ᏰᎯᎠᎻᎬᎯᏒᎿ  
Is he gone?

@Kicks24Sf  
I don’t know

How do you cope with reality in a healthy way?  
I haven’t been able to see my friends, and they won’t pickup on calls anyways.. it’s been a while since I last saw their faces.
 
Online school has been hell, my grades are dropping but I don’t care enough about it.
 
Videogames are merely a time waster for me, just something to get to sleep quicker and end the day faster, a unproductive distraction.
 
I don’t have any good books, I’ve reread the same book about dairy I have 3 times now. The rest of the books I have are old children’s books.
 
I don’t have any hobbies, I can’t pursue anything since all the fun things you can do are closed, like bowling or golfing.

@Slingring  
In a healthy way? I wouldn’t know.
 
Try working out I guess.

@Slingring  
maybe try meditation. find some kind of piece of mind like that. not sure how well it works.  
i just deal with reality by distracting myself.

Thigs just keep getting worse every day. The next three months are already unsalvageable. I don’t have a single positive thing to look forward to anymore.

This is really trivial (especially when compared to the more recent things posted here) but a few old friends have been trying to get back in touch with me.
 
I’m glad they still think about me and want to catch up. I’ve thought about contacting them, myself. But it’s ridiculous how much I’m putting off talking to them. Mainly because I’m expecting the conversation to go something like “So how was college?” “Dropped out.” “Oh. Well where do you work?” “I don’t.” “Oh. Got a girlfriend?” “Nope.”
 
I just expect them to think I’m a loser. Then I think if they are that judgmental, why should I care? I’d just go back to not talking to them and nothing would really change.
 
What’s wrong with me? It’s not like I’m jealous of them. Is it pride? I didn’t think I had much of that left either.

@pixel  
Fuckin’ text them.
 
Maybe they can find you some work?

@Background Pony #F5B2  
i deal with reality by distraction too, what do you like doing?  
i spend a shit ton of time at the computer usually :P

@Slingring  
watching things on youtube is mostly enough to keep me from thinking about the meh stuff in life. i also have this garden going thats pretty exciting. its neat to see food grow. dont really have the motivation to play video games or read much anymore. also have a few random collections. but havent really added to any of them because a lack of money. but my biggest collection is video game stuff. i also got this small laserdisc collection i want to expand. one of my favorite media types, just as cool as music cassettes, lol.
 
probably an unpopular opinion but some time back my favorite distraction used to be to take psychedelics every weekend, did that off and on for 3 years till i lost my job and wasnt getting that good pay anymore.

@pixel  

 
Maybe, I don’t know them. Still, you should take that risk. Why? Because, you don’t know if you could be walking away from something good either. I’ve seen depression and people who start to think they are loser and they start a toxic process of walking away from opportunities like this that further their isolation. Pushed away friends that helped. If they simply dissmiss you as a loser then walk away, but you can’t know that till you contact them.
 
Do it.
 
 
@Background Pony #F5B2  
I second the gardening for sure! NO on the psychedelics