Technology is taking too much away. The physical aspect feels like it’s dying out.
Old things are now dying out.
Internet can be an addiction.
Everything is becoming digitalized.
We’re now becoming over-isolated due to virus-paranoia.
I want to be in a conversation where there are no stresses, politics, religeon, medical talk…. But what is there to talk about? When everyone is worried and paranoid like it’s… hard to talk. Or they just mistake how you are trying to be and are not understanding your ways. Or they just point out your autism and remind you of what you are and how you’re trying to cope. Or You acknowledge what you are and cannot cope, so you isolate.
And then that is part of why everything is digital… which is fine? Maybe that’s also the case????
It’s a down? It’s an up? I don’t get it.
/ And then you got people worrying about you when you don’t want to talk about yourself or talk to anyone and they question why or assume your paranoid when they should think about just leaving alone when you want to be left alone. /
So, yeah, maybe I am still at caution, but I am far better than I was last year. It’s just a thing now. But I know how to knock it off. Now I’m being reminded of an anime called, “The overly cautious Knight” or something like that. …haha idk
I share my depression only when I feel it’s necissary, I used to share it out of the blue all of the time when I was broken, but now when I am rebuilt I just say nothing about my stresses anymore, because it only causes others to worry about me too much and they would do the wrong thing, only when they think they’re helping me.
I want to go to a social gathering, that is a drawing class, or a chess session, or a card game session. With actual people at a table.
Not a bar. And there is only a bowling alley to go to.. Don’t know if I want to go there..
Everything seems okay after a while. The typical, “casual” act you see. Then when you want to talk about something, you can’t think of something to talk about because you spend most of your life isolated. Because people want to talk about politics, medical stuff, stress, religeon…. or they are drunk.. or you’re just not comfortable around drunks.. ( I have nothing agenst anyone who drinks. ) And you want an interesting ongoing conversation about ….. what you’re a fan of or what funny thing happened… or what interesting thing you did…
When you want to talk someone, you begin with, “What’s up?”…. You always get; “nothing much” or something more depressing than that.
You try to talk about something when talking to depressed people but
they pull it all downward. Then it makes you feel down. The video is not an efficiant example.
It’s understanding that they do that. I get it. I’ve been there. In cases… I’m not gonna be descriptive on that though, what I share, is what I share.
So… I guess I just may be depressed with everyone else… Or just be Pinkie Pie as best as I can.. Not too literally, but you could get the idea of that. And sometimes… sitting by someone with the same interest while not saying much at all would be nice. But being at discomfort most of the time doesn’t help when they do stuff you don’t like.