[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

Voidhead

I don't really let it get to me. It's pretty apparent that a lot of us are clinically depressed and isolated so its no surprise we end up doing that to each other unintentionally.

Derpi is one of the few places that I feel a sense of belonging.
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DarkObsidian
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Panzerfuchs
You could ask me a lot of questions about why I hang out on Derpibooru. The answers are as varied as they are difficult to explain. Basically I just long for a piece of "easiness" in my life. At the same time I wish to find like-minded people who share the same interests. But it's also about fighting inner loneliness. Although I have written little about my depression in recent months, it is a simple fact that I have been living with it for a long time now. I've gotten used to it in many parts of my life. Yet it's there. And it still keeps me busy. In quiet moments. Then I wish to see something and to participate in something that is easier than the incredibly gloomy thoughts that I feel every day. So MLP and Derpibooru help me to keep my mind stable. Although it doesn't help against inner loneliness. You can only try to control it. To master the feeling. And not to be devour by it.

Sometimes I wish I could draw something that comes close to the feeling of holding my dead comrades in my arms. I always keep coming back at this time. Practically every day. No matter how I work or what I'm doing. I'm trapped in a single moment in my life. And that makes me desperate.

I can't live a normal life anymore. Never again. And it gnaws on my soul until one of us get killed. In one way or another. Only in the remoteness of the mountains do I feel shelter and peace. Otherwise, I'd just like to bury this part of my past. Before it buries me…

I long for rest.

I long for silence.

Sometimes I just don't want to anymore. And yet it has to go on. Why…? I get so tired sometimes. So incredibly tired…
tehwatever
Friendship, Art, and Magic (2020) - Took part in the 2020 Community Collab
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@SaviorAssassin1996
Hahahaha! Yeah it's probably accurate. Same with me. I come here only to post hijab pony art.
I can't socialize here bcoz I have no time. Any spare time I have I dedicate to learning how to draw. Why? Because my job sucks but I have no skills no degree no girlfriend no friend and I'm fucking old. So I might as well develop a skill on something I know I really love doing.

I know I won't ever make a living on shit quality art but at least I find solace in it…
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Shylover
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It's ok to not feel ok.
@Count Adramélekh Sear ov the Far East
There are many types of people in this thread alone:

-The Norm venter

-The All-Caps guy

-The Whiny one

-The "WTF is going on" guy

-The Cops (he who keeps everyone in bay)


@Shylover
@Count Adramélekh Sear ov the Far East
The whiny one? No wonder why everyone hates me for what I am nowadays. I….. Geez. I don't know what else to say, but I guess I'll accept that I am the whiny one. No argument on that.

I guess I'll have to…… Accept…… The facts……. About me. 😔💔
Shylover
Wallet After Summer Sale -

It's ok to not feel ok.
@Scrabbleman
Of course nobody cares. And also, no. I rather not move on. I rather suffer with it. Cause now I'm fully depressed. I'm not sad anymore, I'm not even crying anymore, and I'm not even angry anymore too. I'm depressed. I rather live with my depression forever and never move on.

@Badheart
Also, no. I'm not the All-Caps guy. I'm the Whiny one. That's all I am. No wonder I'm all alone.
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Scrabbleman
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@Shylover
I rather not move on. I rather suffer with it.

And why exactly do you prefer suffering, only to then complain about your suffering with all the caps lock, the "It's all my fault" and "I'm a bad friend" things? I mean, you can go do your thing and suffer as much as you want. It's your choice. But for what purpose is there to tell everyone about it?

Go live with what you want because it's yours. If you want to rob a bank, then do it. Personally, I'd continue moving no matter what. Even if my legs break, even if I skin burns and my eyes turn blind, I'll keep moving to the very end. And if I die, I die. There's no reason to cry about it.
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Shylover
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It's ok to not feel ok.
@Scrabbleman
I said I'm not crying nor angry nor sad. "Oh my god now I'm mad this time." And no, I'm not gonna say these types of dramatic bullshit dramas ever again, because I've had it from saying those stupid things. And also, why did you say "If you want to rob a bank, then do it"? Why the hell would you say that? I'm not going to rob a fucking bank. Don't worry. My god. I'm sorry, but I'm not going to move on. I rather be in my room with everything turned off "my movies only" except my phone, tablet, video games, and videos. I rather be alone, and I rather be with my depression for the rest of my life. So leave me the fuck alone! I'm done talking about this shit.
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@tehwatever
This is the only way I get through life. I just figure I'll get good at something.

I'm not even sure what that something is. Drawing is just a backup, so if I get leukemia tomorrow I can spray paint two ponies banging on the side of a building before I die. Either that or call of Guinness Book of World Records with 4 grams of shard.
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Death2
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You know those plastic things they attach to light switches so you can't turn them off (like the one for the lamp in the apartment lobby downstairs)?

I wish I had one for my "happy" switch. Just leave it on forever. Never feel miserable or have crying attacks whenever someone criticizes my thoughts or work.
DDavy
My Little Pony - 1992 Edition
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Ribbon Wielder
when was my skin soft enough to be cut more harder? people are right all over..I am just a retarded piece of sh*t that doesnt deserve friends anymore..can i just die or something? lifes already harder with more of my teeth being taken out, losing the ability to even eat.
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Shylover
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It's ok to not feel ok.
Is there anybody I can trust again? The vent thread has totally destroyed my trust and I don't know what to do or who to talk to anymore. I don't know. I'm tired of feeling alone. I felt so alone this week and even in last weekend too. The whole controversies and the whole dramas have really depressed me completely. My feelings are hurt today, and I don't know who to talk to anymore.
tehwatever
Friendship, Art, and Magic (2020) - Took part in the 2020 Community Collab
Wallet After Summer Sale -
Friendship, Art, and Magic (2019) - Celebrated Derpibooru's seventh year anniversary with friends.

@Shylover
You can talk to me. But then I'm always busy, and I don't even share your hobbies so I dont know how much help I can be.

Oh btw I'm depressed, too. Wouldn't be on this here thread if I wasn't.
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Shylover
Wallet After Summer Sale -

It's ok to not feel ok.
@tehwatever
Thanks. One of my friends Mikey, Badheart, Flutter_Lover, and Labyrinthine are busy at the moment. I just don't know what to do today. Thanks again
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tehwatever
Friendship, Art, and Magic (2020) - Took part in the 2020 Community Collab
Wallet After Summer Sale -
Friendship, Art, and Magic (2019) - Celebrated Derpibooru's seventh year anniversary with friends.

@Shylover
What game you blay? I bersonally like games where I can build an OP character. I dont like skill based multiplayer games or MMO.

My current fave is Kenshi and Warframe at the moment.

Oh, and I also like games like Undertale, Deltarune, One Shot, Stardew Valley…
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