@Labyrinthine
Kindness shouldn’t require a reward. I’m simply the wrong person to ask. Which is why I’d rather go my own path.
If any kindness was to be given from me, it’s me sparing someone by leaving them. Besides, if someone gets hurt because I don’t react in an expected, typical way, it just shows how fragile they would be to know my real problems and just get hurt anyways. To spare the moments of “bonding” by forgetting anything that happened so as to not scar them.
Truly, if only people really knew my motives. To me, I believe people speak to me out of pity more than anything. The last thing I want is someone who is ultimately better than myself, telling me how to live and knowing all my weaknesses to pinpoint and finally bully me out of a desperation attempt to “fix” me.
I’ve seen and experienced enough of this deception. Nobody really cares. I am words on anybody’s screen. An unknown being with no face. I only exist here to tell my story to give myself what little purpose I have interest in.