I went ahead and finished the song. Here it is.
Writing this acknowledgement, it’s taking up all my power.
I don’t know where my friends are at. I’m getting higher than the Willis Tower.
I need to churn this letter out, I’m in a mix of ball and speed.
I probably won’t survive tonight, so please listen to my apology.
Growing up, I’d been a victim of mental abuse. Mom and dad both told me I was of no use.
Growing up, I’d been a victim of mental abuse. Still, you and I both know that is no excuse.
I know that in your heart, you probably won’t forgive. So if I do die…
I was an awful person. I treated you like you were crap. I’m tired of excusing for all my awful abusing. Deep down, I am a love sap.
I am tired of being so toxic. It’s not a good look for me. If abuse breeds abuse, then we’re a pair of deuce. Hatred for all to see.
This here is my apology.
I still regret the night that I made out with the other girl.
Took her to my apartment and fucked her on the bathroom floor.
You walked in on me horrified, not sure of what you had done seen.
This is all because I made the ruling to give you a spare key.
Growing up, I’d been a victim of mental abuse. Mom and dad both told me I was of no use.
Growing up, I’d been a victim of mental abuse. Still, you and I both know that is no excuse.
I know that in your heart, you probably won’t forgive. So if I do die…
I was an awful person. I treated you like you were crap. I’m tired of excusing for all my awful abusing. Deep down, I am a love sap.
I am tired of being so toxic. It’s not a good look for me. If abuse breeds abuse, then we’re a pair of deuce. Hatred for all to see.
This here is my apology.
I’m not writing to you, dearest, to justify my deeds.
It’s not because I got caught.
All I’m asking is forgiveness because I care about your needs.
Don’t wanna make it all for naught.
The hurting, the pain. It won’t be the same.
The cheating, the lies. I was far from wise.
I will go to a therapist to work on my problems.
My actions have done cause me to reach rock bottom.
I am tired of the bullshit that I put you through for years.
It isn’t fair for you, so let me make it clear.
Having a crappy childhood is no excuse.
I’m just asking for a new start, so let my heart effuse.
I was an awful person. I treated you like you were crap. I’m tired of excusing for all my awful abusing. Deep down, I am a love sap.
I am tired of being so toxic. It’s not a good look for me. If abuse breeds abuse, then we’re a pair of deuce. Hatred for all to see.
This here is my apology.
I was an awful person. I treated you like you were crap. I’m tired of excusing for all my awful abusing. Deep down, I am a love sap.
I am tired of being so toxic. It’s not a good look for me. If abuse breeds abuse, then we’re a pair of deuce. Hatred for all to see.
This here is my apology.