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AbeCK (FLSHBCK)/agh5eventh
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English:  
Hello everyone that is reading this (especially the MLP fandom artists, i’m AbeCK (or FLSHBCK™) recently, i started in mlp drawing and drawing in general.  
I wanted to start much time ago, specifically during 2015 in the MLP’s Fandom, making draws. i started drawing with MLP bases and post them on my YouTube channel with speedbases and I contemplate the possibility of doing it but on DeviantArt, here I leave the links:  
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4YZwwgeDFL8Bz3pen7N3FQ  
https://www.deviantart.com/agh5eventh  
However, when i across with artists with major caliber than me, even users that draw better than me, out of the MLP Fandom, i was becoming jealous and envy, because i can’t gonna out of the MLP bases for will draw with freedom, when i try it, the draws finished with horrible results…so, i had intentions 4 draw and stand out a little bit on the pony/brony community, but now MLP ended this year…i feel that i’m too late in that sense…(you could tell me things as “Why don’t you try do other things?”, “Stop being sad” but the truth if is something that you can’t do but, whatever, you want to do it, i don’t agree with suppress that latencies). So, the time passed, that turned into depression immediately (somewhat dormant for some time due to other factors), issue i can’t deal with it very easy…even i caused problems with my near family and friendly circles, thanks to this and even in my school problems, now I am taking therapies to forget those bad moments and rectify what I have done. Even an artist offered to help me with that problem … but not only do I want to limit myself to him, in addition to that I have wanted to learn to draw or something like that but through distance classes, I could not conceive time for that. A notable artist from the MLP Fandom (l’d rather you guess I don’t want to cause him trouble) promised to help me with that matter but I do not know if he does not want or is busy, and I think bad of him and I do not know why (first of all for time and second because I fear that I will get paid at some point). So, as much as I ask for help, they just motivate me and irritate me with things like “start practicing” or something like that. Although I listen to it and then I try to do it, I just get sad or nostalgic and I don’t understand why it happens…  
I would like someone to help me with that problem to all who are reading this. I need not so much a guardianship or an advice. However, I wish they would not charge me the aid … in case I have financial problems in this regard and apart from that I am a student, and like many I do not have an income. but I would only settle for what they could offer me voluntarily (exercises, advices, or things like that please). If you read this, I appreciate you taking the time to do so regardless of your decision. Being depressed in these is really difficult, you feel alone, nobody can fully understand you, you feel tired, you neglect many things in your life and a long etc. Besides, they have made drawings so good that I really feel bad in the long term, because I want to make up for what they did to me. I know that drawing is difficult but I really need help.I am looking for other complements to develop that skill, books, videos, etc, but isn’t enough…and regarding speaking English too…the truth is one cannot stand out if he does not know the “World’s Language” (I am proficient at a low level - medium but I need to practice with someone, especially i’m using translator to translate some words and sentences…in this). I really need help in that sense too…I hope you can do it…and just the same if you decide to do it, take into account that I don’t want to bother people when I’m busy or something, only the time they want to dedicate is fine…It’s enough for me as a song from my country (Mexico) said and relating it as a metaphor “As long as it is 2 minutes, or if it is just one, I will be happy”…again, I Thx you for reading this, even if give me advice or any material will be appreciated from the heart.
 
Sincerely, Your FLSHBCK™ Server
 
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Hola a todo aquel que esté leyendo esto (Sobretodo del fandom de MLP), soy AbeCK (FLSHBCK™) apenas me inicié en el dibujo de mlp y el dibujo, en general.  
Quería iniciarme hace mucho, más concretamente durante el 2015 en el Fandom de MLP haciendo dibujos. Ya había iniciado al menos utilizando bases y publicándolos en mi canal de Youtube con speedbases y contemplo la posibilidad de hacerlo pero en DeviantArt, he acá se los dejo:  
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4YZwwgeDFL8Bz3pen7N3FQ  
https://www.deviantart.com/agh5eventh  
Sin embargo, al toparme con artistas de mayor calibre que yo o ya ni siquiera eso, si no ya de plano usuarios que fuera de estar en el fandom saben dibujar mejor que yo, me comenzaron a dar celos y envidia al no poder salir de la base para poder dibujar libremente, al intentarlo, los dibujos me salían bastante horribles…y la verdad, es que tenía las intenciones de dibujar y destacar un poco en la comunidad pony, pero ahora que la serie se acabó este año…siento que llegué tarde en ese sentido (podrían decir: “Por qué no te dedicas a hacer otra cosa?” “deja de estar triste” pero si es algo de lo cual te sientes incapaz de hacer pero aún así quieres hacerlo, pues no estoy de acuerdo a reprimir esas latencias). Pero lo cierto es que con el tiempo eso se convirtió en depresión inmediatamente (algo latente desde hace algún tiempo por otros factores), cosa que actualmente no puedo salir tan bien que digamos…incluso he causado bastantes problemas con mi circulo cercano de amigos gracias a esto e incluso en mis propósitos escolares, ahora estoy tomando terapias para olvidar esos malos momentos y rectificar lo que he hecho. Incluso un artista se ofreció a ayudarme con ese problema…pero no sólo quiero limitarme a él, además de que he querido aprender a dibujar o algo así pero por clases a distancia, no he podido concebir tiempo para eso. Un artista destacable del Fandom de MLP (prefiero que lo adivinen no quiero causarle problemas) prometió ayudarme con ese asunto pero no sé si no quiere o está ocupado, y me da por pensar mal de él y no sé por qué (primero que nada por tiempo y segunda por que temo a que me cobre en algún momento). Cabe mencionar que por más que pido ayuda, solo me motivan y me irritan con cosas como “ponte a practicar” o algo así. Si bien lo escucho y pues trato de hacerlo simplemente me da por ponerme triste o nostálgico y no entiendo por qué me pasa…  
Quisiera que alguien me ayudara con ese problema a todo quién esté leyendo esto. Necesito no tanto una tutela o una asesoría. Sin embargo, quisiera que no me cobrarán la ayuda…de por si tengo problemas económicos al respecto y aparte soy estudiante, y como muchos no tengo ingresos. pero sólo me conformaría con lo que me pudieran ofrecer voluntariamente (ejercicios, consejos, o cosas por el estilo por favor). Si leíste esto, te agradezco que te hayas tomado el tiempo de hacerlo independientemente de tu decisión. Estar deprimido en estas es en verdad difícil, te sientes solo, nadie puede entenderte del todo, te sientes cansado, descuidas muchas cosas de tu vida y un largo etc. además cabe recalcar que me han hecho dibujos tan buenos que la verdad me siento mal a largo plazo, porque quiero compensar lo que me hicieron yo sé que dibujar es difícil pero en verdad necesito ayuda. Estoy buscando otros complementos para desarrollar esa habilidad, libros, videos, etc, pero no es suficiente…y con respecto a hablar inglés también…la verdad uno no puede destacar si no sabe el “World’s Language” (lo domino en un nivel bajo-medio pero necesito practicar con alguien), de verdad necesito ayuda en ese sentido también…espero puedan hacerlo…e igual si deciden hacerlo, tomen en cuenta que no quiero molestar a la gente cuando esté ocupada o algo así, sólo el tiempo que quieran dedicarme está bien…me basta como decía una canción de mi país y relacionándolo a modo de metáfora “Con tal de que sean 2 minutos, o que sea uno solo, yo seré feliz”…de nueva cuenta, les agradezco haber leído esto, así mismo si me dan consejo o material alguno se agradecerá de corazón.
 
ATTE: Su servidor FLSHBCK™
tehwatever
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So, as much as I ask for help, they just motivate me and irritate me with things like “start practicing” or something like that. Although I listen to it and then I try to do it, I just get sad or nostalgic and I don’t understand why it happens…
Cabe mencionar que por más que pido ayuda, solo me motivan y me irritan con cosas como “ponte a practicar” o algo así. Si bien lo escucho y pues trato de hacerlo simplemente me da por ponerme triste o nostálgico y no entiendo por qué me pasa…
Hello. I read your post and I sympathize with you. My username is tehwatever and I’m a very beginner artist who does art as a hobby. I also, am very depressed and unhappy most of the time, but that’s another matter. Let’s get talk about what you just said.  
I also feel sad and nostalgic when practicing and I will tell you WHY.
 
It’s because I expect fast result. It’s because I am already comparing what I have, with what other people have, and I feel like I will never be on their level. But that’s what I have to keep fighting against. Even if it’s sad or nostalgic, I must do it. One line at a time, one curve at a time. Even if I feel sad I have to practice them. I focus ONLY on the practice, the shapes, the shading. The results don’t matter.
 
My personal workflow is this: practice one or two things, then stop practicing, then work on what you like, then practice again, then draw what you want. You will find that the things you practice will help you when you’re drawing your favorite subject.
 
Materials? Anything on Youtube is free valuable materials. You must make it enough, especially if you don’t have money to spend. Go to the spanish thread El Hilo Hispano to see about your english skills.
 
Pienso que ya puedes escribir con claridad, y tambien pienso que puedes leer y escuchar materiales in ingles. El inglés tuyo es mucho mejor que el español mio.
 
Te comparto libros de Andrew Loomis, un maestro del dibujo, en la forma del PDF. Me dicho que eres estudiante? Seguro que hay muchos libros del arte y del dibujo en la biblioteca. No olvides de preguntar a los usuarios en el hilo hispano si pueden ayudarte sobre las cosas que has escrito.
 
Cuidate amigo/a
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@AbeFLSHBCK
 
enough chit chat, time is candy :)
 
first of all, for digital art you need a graphical tablet like Wacom, XP-Pen, or similar, even the cheap ones will do, without such a tablet it will be hella hard for you to achieve great results drawing digitally.
 
second, software.  
in the free graphical editor’s field, Krita is a good choice for raster-based drawings, and Inkscape is a good choice for vector-based works.  
watch some overview videos about chosen graphical editor before diving into it.
 
and third, tutorials.  
if you still want to draw pony, then try to redraw and analyze some of this SorcerusHorserus’ tutorials, or this dstears’ tutorials, and look up how to draw tag, there’s a lot more.  
when you analyze enough, you get the basic understanding of how pony works, and then you’ll be able to draw your own poses without any bases.
 
as for humans etc, Andrew Loomis is good, as tehwatever noted above.  
and for digital art in general, try Ctrl+Paint videos.
 
as for grammar and orthographical errors in written English, I recommend Grammarly and their Grammar Checker.  
it can even check your grammar errors on the fly if you add their extension to your web browser.
 
hope it helps, embrace failure and keep an eye out for happy accidents, that’s where the magic happens.
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