Time and time again, I find myself wandering back here wondering if I should come back, but then I see that one guy, the guy who pretty much made me leave time and time again, because of our constant back and forth and his annoyingly arrogant personality. I left a while ago, and he’s the one still here, and I know I shouldn’t be feeling like I “lost” or anything, but I do feel that. There are sites I feel like I want to use, for the experience to only be ruined by a certain individual, they’re there, and if I don’t want to deal with it, I have to be the one to leave the site entirely, while that person doesn’t have to do anything because they don’t care about being a dick and I’m tired of being disrespected by their passive-aggressive snarky comments towards me but also missing the site I once had enjoyment in.
I still don’t know if I wanna come back, but if I’m still coming back to this site, thinking about it, then I probably do. People have been telling me to report, but that would mean I’d have to go through that BS again, report them, link them to possibly multiple posts, and defend my reasoning. They get a warning or something, and then I have to hope they’re just gonna stop being a dick, if they do, I get to report them and maybe they get a temporary ban. And to be completely fucking honest, I don’t want do that.
Even if they’re not a dick anymore, I’ve got enough hatred and anger-filled grudge against them to not even want to see another post by them again if I ever do come back, even if it’s not snarky or even has anything to do with me, I just never want to fucking see them again. Even if they’ve changed, even an ok person now, I honestly would go over the fucking moon if I could get them banned or leave right when I come back. It’s not even about if I ever interact with them, I just want to never see a new post or comment they make again when I’m on, and be reminded of this petty hatred.
If I ever do come back, I think I’ll have to resort using that User Blocker script, it’s petty and just a reminder of how much I hold onto my grudges, but it’s still way better than the feeling of seeing that fucker post without a care in the world while reminding me that I had resorted to leaving because of how frustrated I was, and still am.