Vent thread

@Hypnosryan  
I wake up at 9 also!

@Prince Areo  
@Hypnosryan  
I don’t like waking up later than 8.  
I usually wake up at 6.

Now that it’s summer, I just can’t seem to stop drinking so much water and other drinks, especially during work hours. In the summer months, they’re always telling us to drink “plenty” of water, but the side effects like having to pee every few hours is just so damn inconvenient and concerning! I hope I don’t have diabeetus.
 
Hey, employers: probably not a good idea to give everyone general non-specific health advice like “drink plenty of water,” considering that people are different and have different requirements for good health. Plus, I don’t know if the frequent bathroom trips will be mentioned on the performance reviews and I’ll be denied for raises and promotions.

@HJSDGCE  
I did 6 AM too.

@SonGokuMonkey  
It takes less than 2 minutes to go to the toilet and back. I’m pretty sure it won’t be that bad.
 
Hell, you go to the toilet 5 times a day and what? 10 minutes? 15 at most. That’s not really serious.
 
Unless you’re one of those people who spend a buttload of time peeing for some reason, then you don’t have a problem.

@HJSDGCE  
Now that you mention it, it does sound like a good excuse to get away from my work station and not have to deal with supervisors, leads, and coworkers for 2-5 minutes. And I get to sneek a peek at Facebook, Deviantart, and Derpi (thank God for smartphones.)

I’ve come to the realization that if I no longer existed, no one would know. I kinda knew this a long time ago but it’s true that I was an accidental life since both parents discarded me and left to someone else to raise. I’m extremely abnormal compared to pretty much everyone I’ve been around or seen. I’m not suicidal or anything but I really would love it just to end already. I’m not contributing to the world and fitting in to the societal norms, following things in perfect alignment and making people acknowledge me and have a purpose like I see others constantly do. I feel like shit everyday, go to work to no friends, come home bored and thinking of something to do to distract myself. Even though I try to fix myself, I will never ever be regular, or at least fake it like most people do. I keep telling myself that it’ll change and someone not like the rest will change my views, but all I get are the same answers. It’s difficult to live life being different. No one likes you or is afraid of you, even yourself at times.
 
I need to leave the country, join in in another culture. Something. Get away from this sameness. These same people doing the same things. I don’t believe I’ll ever truly be happy though, but I’m still trying to live till I’m much older. Maybe I will, maybe I won’t.

@Agent Luna  
You don’t fit in with the the society you live in and that makes you miserable.
 
Maybe you should stop trying to fit in and start being OK with who you are. You don’t have to love it (and I know self-loathing like it means business) but just accept it.
 
As for hobbies, just do anything. And before you say “I don’t wanna”, reminder that you not wanting is the reason you’re bored to begin with.

@HJSDGCE  
Oh sure, I shouldn’t worry about it even though I get shit on by people all the time. I mean, even you sound condescending toward me with saying “I don’t wanna”. I can’t tell if you’re pointing fingers at me or not. Again, I’ve had that same answer even before someone told me. I think of this a lot more and what I’m doing wrong. Being blamed by people who think they know me and the ones who paint this awful mental picture of me doesn’t sound promising or that I should be okay with myself based on so much negative feedback over just being “myself”. It’s made me hate people and refusing to be like them, which made me something new that no one likes. I’m so used to being hated and blamed that I don’t even feel human. From day one, I wasn’t wanted.
 
How the hell would you feel?

@Agent Luna  
Honestly, it hurts. Also honestly, I’m very apathetic. Which is just another word for “not caring about what other people think”. I’m also quite selfish, which fuels my needs of wanting anything, usually food. As for sounding condescendingly… Yeah, I’m like that to everyone.
 
I’m a pretty shitty human being. Being lazy, dumb, selfish, uncaring, etc. But my apathy is the only reason I can handle it. Not because I’m tough or something. It’s just that, to me, what anyone thinks doesn’t matter unless I actually did something wrong that I can see.
 
Years of conditioning with being surrounded by either assholes or groupies does that to you. I felt like shit early on and even contemplated suicide. But then I slowly stopped caring and is just more worried on whether I can get a job.
 
Basically, you get used to it. You won’t like it, but it will happen unless something changes. That’s just how it is, I guess?

@HJSDGCE  
I also noticed online, people care much less than in real life. Many a time I’ve seen those who felt awful, then getting attacked for it. They don’t see the consequences is all. Even if said person killed themselves. Nowadays it’s perfectly fine to cheer someone on online for a suicide attempt; literally. Because how can one tell it’s real, right? I guess it’s a good thing I’m alone, not wanting to do this vile act. The problem is I care too much, feel too much and think too much. It’s pretty much the norm to not care, that’s how a lot of people act when I notice it. Too many things to drown ourselves in, so why care right?

@Agent Luna  
I guess. The Internet is full of horrible people but they will never act that way in real life. Being uncaring is normal because under a logical standpoint, you wonder why it mattered.
 
Having emotions isn’t a bad thing. We all have them, some more in tuned than others. The question is how you direct it. Do you feel for yourself, for others, for what others see of you, or for what you see of others?
 
I’m a jerk of a human being, but that doesn’t mean I don’t care about other people. I just don’t care what other people think of me.
 
I think it’s nice that you feel more than most. Every emotion is amplified, both good and bad.

I hate my brother, he is a white knight of my father. He claimed that my father did nothing wrong. Excuse me?
 
@CyanLightning  

 
Yeah, he didn’t nothing wrong for being abusive parent. Only know how to have a kids but don’t how to rise them. And what worse is that everyone in my family except me believe that the older more knowledgable and shouldn’t be question. It make me have the position of dumping ground.
 
Right now. I am a 100 % sure that I am the only sane person in my family. Because I based my view on scientific facts not an old book from desert. I am pretty much surrounding by weird people and what’s worse because I am the sane person they call me weird.
 
They claimed to love me, but action is speak louder than word. If so don’t claimed that my father did nothing wrong. Don’t dismissed my feeling while I am venting and defending the who shouldn’t be defend, just because he is our father. And claiming that he owe us everything just because rise us.
 
By the way while I were talking my with brother, my father appear out of nowhere. Then he said to me that I defame him. Eh, hello you’re the one how act like an asshole and the one who make yourself look bad. All I did is just venting with brother and telling a fact. And then another bullshit come out and saying that I do this and this and that because he rise me I should be follow his rule. And then he said that I should be thankful for being rise by him. Excuse me I would never thanking to anyone who abuse me verbally or physically. Or in this case my both. He should be thankful that I didn’t do anything crazy because how he treat me.
 
Also I love how my brother claimed that if my father dead I would be sad. Haha, no. No. No seriously no. Unless if he was a good father than yes it would be sad. But he far from it and right abusive. The only thing that will happened when he dead is I would feel relief like some huge weight that have been carried for so long being lifted.

@CyanLightning
 
From a point of view, between the anormality of the behavior of all the members of your family as you describe, it became to be the ’normality’ there, so taking this idea, then the ’strange’ one because of acting rationally is you, but ’strange’ doesn’t necessary means bad, depending of the context it can be very good, and that you are the only one that is sane? I don’t doubt it; they can’t clearly understand you despite the efforts, either is because they directly don’t want or it’s because of a simply incapability.
 
Sometimes being able to see a world from a different perspective than the other people, and at the same time being unable to try to make them understand, ends to be frustrating, stressful, because you don’t have even one person to identify with, and they can’t see what you see. Is like to scream without no one noticing it, and without being able to listen even your own voice.
 
I said this times before and it’s supposed that every person should knew it before, but the respect it’s not a way of thinking that it’s automatically tied between familiars, it’s a bond that should be developed, you can’t pretend to feel love or even affect towards someone that been abusive, or that even destroyed your dreams to attach to what they think is right, that’s unnatural; and it’ll be hyprocresy. Give and take; but without taking something, therefore no reason to give back something unexistent. I really wish that your parents someday understand such simple and logical concept, one can dream.
 
But what is more outrageous; is that they think that abussing is correct, in what kind of mind can that idea fit? If they claim that younger persons should follow what the older ones says, I don’t know, for putting an extreme example: should I’ll be following the ideas of a famous dictator from here only because he’s an old person and therefore has more experience in life, even if I completely disagree with his thinking? They can provoke you pain, they can mock you, hit you, do whatever to you, but they will not be able to take away the ideas, and that, that’s one of the most valuable thing that we have; each second that happens, strongest it is.

I ordered a Sleep Number bed 15 business days ago and it still has not shipped. I was told in the store it would take 3 - 4 days to ship, then in the order confirmation email that it would be 5 - 7 days, and then when I called the store after 10 days I was told it would be 14 days. I called a second time yesterday, the 14th day, and the man said he would contact customer service and call me back this morning. The asshole never called back so I called customer service myself and after spending 20 minutes on hold, I was told the bed would take 14 - 17 business days to ship but at this point I don’t believe anything this shitty company says. The agent said there is a shipping delay because of high demand for a new model they’re producing. They never told me that until today, and besides it’s not my fucking problem what else the factory is producing. My order is a binding agreement and they violated its terms. But the thing that really pisses me off is that Sleep Number was not upfront with me. They have lied to me again and again. I deserve better service for the cost of their product. I deserve better service regardless of the item or price.

@kleptomage  
The fuck is a Sleep Number?

@HJSDGCE  
An adjustable air mattress. It was really comfortable at the store.

This probably isn’t the place, but I watching hypocrites expose themselves in a public setting since now no one has any reason to take them seriously.
 
It’s just the “Do as I say, not as I do” mentality and it’s on full display for all to see.

@Cyborg_pony  
The AGE OF HYPOCRISY is upon us.

@Prince Areo
 
And the age of IDIOCY too if people don’t figure out this nonsense.

@ArkyNoid  
Don’t forget the age of INTOLERANCE too.

@Prince Areo  
Intolerance is the new tolerance.

@Cyborg_pony  

 
Thank god I’m not tolerant

@Prince Areo
 
@ArkyNoid
 
@Prince Areo
 
@Cyborg_pony
 
It’s an IDIOCRACY!

@SonGokuMonkey  
If only somebody or some institution warned about this years ag- OH WAIT