I’m having second thoughts about this job. I feel I bit off more than I can chew. I jumped into it with out much thought, thinking only of the money I need to make and focusing only on the positives. I was way too impulsive and now I feel I am going to pay the price.
Right now my heart is pounding so fast and hard I can actually feel my heartbeat in my eyes just from thinking about it. It’s too late to back out now, I’m going to do at least a week which is supposed to be my trial run. Hopefully after this week, if I survive, I will be able to just be honest and say this is not for me. I hope the boss will understand. He’s a great guy, very nice and generous to employees, which is going to make this harder because I don’t want to disappoint him.
I just don’t have confidence in my abilities to do this job; all it takes is one mistake and I could not only get fired but I could also be slapped with a huge ticket, get points on my license or possibly even worse. I just can’t think of any other job that would be a good fit for me. I love to travel and be out all day, I can’t stand being behind a desk but I’m not very athletic so more physical jobs like construction are not going to work. What other job other than driving would be a good fit I wonder. I thought of being a pilot but I just don’t think it’s for me. I thought of being a forest ranger since I love the outdoors but it’s too close to being a police officer for me.
I would love to one day own my own company and do things my way but until that happens I just need a decent job and in my haste and desperation I feel I made a really bad choice.