[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

I give you all a hug.

the only thing i want is to find someone that will go against the whole world with me. i now im not gonna be able to do it alone.  
this world is so fucking strange and i want out.

I’m still looking at life or death and though more about those..like, i’m not that scared of dying, but I wonder what would happen then after life….forever, permanent darkness, or something else..whichever it is..i hope it’s good.

@DDavy  
there wouldnt be darkness or anything. just poof gone. everything that made you you, gone. no emotions or thought. like before conception. even if it was possible to live to a trillion years, it wouldnt matter since you’ll still die and stop existing.

I’m new to this thread so I’ll be anonymous…
 
My mom got a boyfriend so she is spending more time with her boyfriend than me, I’m all alone in the house. This gave me depression… and loves her boyfriend more than someone who has been with her whole life… 😭😭😭😢😓💏👍💔

@Background Pony #4260  
is this boyfriend beating or harassing. if no then i don’t see the problem. my mom has a boyfriend, and im happy for her. and he has some interests that i do since i do talk to him.

This might be my last day
 
I just want to stay home…

@Background Pony #434A  
Works for me.

@Background Pony #434A  
The boyfriend is mean to me. Idk how we can get along. I tried writing a note for my mom telling her how I feel but that didn’t work…

@Background Pony #4260  
define mean?

So glad I got my antidepressants

@Dashiefluffywaifu  
you mean sugar pills?

@Background Pony #1552  
dickish thing to ask.

@Background Pony #434A  
In my experience, they don’t work… ergo, sugar pills.  
Just saying.

They seem to be working just fine…

@Dashiefluffywaifu  
SEEM to be.  
Doesn’t mean they ARE.

Thats a new one. never been told i wasnt worth someones time before.

I have borderline schizophrenia and PTSD, I suffer from delusions on a regular basis though I rarely talk about them and if you were to meet me you wouldn’t ever think I see things that aren’t there and hear voices.
 
As I’ve gotten older I’ve come to find that life goes on regardless of struggle and that only you have the ability to either be trampled by your hardships or stand us and face the resistance and claw with all your might at what you want in life.
 
I’m a regular on Derpibooru but I’m staying anonymous.

Why is it that when I try to please my dad, or make the simplest mistake, he gets argumentive? Because as black Americans, that’s all we tend to do. I hate myself

@Flutter_Lover  
Please no. Nobody deserves to feel like this. Not even you. 😢

@Flutter_Lover  
when my mom gives me shit for no reason i give her a attitude right back.

@Flutter_Lover  
Just back off and give him a few minutes to cool down.
 
Being a father can be scary, you’re lucky to have him.

@Flutter_Lover  
Why are you trying to please anyone?

@Scrabbleman  
Because it’s on me if I don’t.

@Flutter_Lover  
It’s on you for what? Like, a responsibility?
 
Forgive my opinion but that’s dumb. You don’t owe your life to anyone. You shouldn’t need to please anyone.
 
You’re doing it for no reason.