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[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

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Well, I pretty much am emotional, loud, and annoying. I think I really am a bad person. And I guess have to accept the fact about myself. It’s all my fault. I treated you and some other people like enemies. I’m literally the worst person on this planet who has ever existed. I treated you like shit. And I have to accept the fact about myself. I’m sorry.
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Nope, nada.

I’m the worst person I know because I have yet to meet a person as bad as me. And you know how that feels?

Good. It feels good. It feels good to be the worst person I know because I am convinced no one is as bad as me. Which means everyone is capable of being good or even better than me. Which is what I really want.

I insult people, make fun of them and jerk around but at the same time, I know they can handle it. All those things I said about you, I’m still sorry about that but at the same time, I was being unfair. I expected you to fight back and get mad at me but instead, I got too personal about it. It’s because I put you to my standard and thought "If I can handle it, you can too."

I was wrong. And I refuse to accept that statement about yourself. Nobody deserves to be alone for the rest of their lives. Not now, not ever.
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[screams in German]
Also, I’m hungry as heck right now which probably contributed to my emotional outburst. And I hate being emotional. It makes me feel bad.
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This week just keeps getting worse and worse for me today. Why do I even bother to stay positive, cheer people up a bit, and even be helpful?

:’(

I give up. I knew I should’ve killed myself last year. Then I guess I am going to suffer from loneliness forever.
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Sometime, if you get the chance, you should talk to someone two or three times your age who has been diagnosed with depression and suicidal idealization, but who lived. And who found happiness.

Ask them how they did that, and if it was worth it. Assuming you get a chance.

You might find the answer worth listening to.

I’m not saying it will necessarily change anything, but sometimes perspective can help.

And, like Lady Gaga says, it gets better.
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[UPDATE: oh – you edited your reply, now my response sounds kind of shitty – well, whatever they are going I hope they are ok, and you’ll get in touch with them again soon. Anyway, here’s my original response, please keep in mind I responded before your edits]

Ok, I hope you got an answer that helped :)

For myself, I really should have died … uhm … well, when I was 23, which was quite a few decades ago. But I didn’t. And ever since I’ve been making "ok" enough. I still have every bit of the depression I ever had, and have persistent idealizations of suicide that basically mean I spend the whole day realizing interesting ways to die right now. Like, even now, sitting in front of my computer. So many ways to kill myself, right now, which I absolutely know 100% for a fact is the right thing to do.

But I don’t. And the last several decades have been interesting enough that I’m glad I hung around.

Because it did get better. A lot.

I’m still mad about what happened when I was 23, but I can’t change that. It’s a part of my hard wiring. What I can do something about is decide how I can be the horrifically broken and damaged person that I am, and still be happy.

The answer’s not easy to practice, but it’s very easy in concept.

You can’t change your hard wiring, that’s what your body is and does. But what you do with it – that’s your call. And being hard wired wrong doesn’t mean you can’t find happiness.
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Sorry. I didn’t know you were gonna respond while I was editing. Anyway, to respond your updated response, I hope your right. And I hope my friend "Flutter_Lover" is okay. I just hope nothing bad ever happens to him.
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