I turned 20 last month, but my fetishes for being transformed into submission have always being present throughout my life. I’m hate-filled and can’t seen to dismiss the people that i resent in real life; that has always being a component of my personality. However, the more time progresses, more limitations and obsessions i develope, making me incrementally petty towards others. I default to see the people i dislike as disgusting, and i try to avoid them as much as possible; but that only amounts to the triggering of my broken sexuality, which forces me to seen these people that i hate as the "alphas" and making me feel pathetically aroused by the filth i should despise. This makes me feel so inferior. I hate it.