[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@Badheart  
I understand that moral, but I’m not looking for a broad amount of friends. I’m looling for friends who are very on par with my level of being social along with my interests.

@Flutter_Lover
 
People know even more people.
 
Someone who doesn’t want to spend the time might know someone who does.
 
Should you have interacted with the right social circle we’d probably be playing Forza right now.

@Badheart  
Horizon?

@Flutter_Lover
 
Forza 7 right now
 
I got H2 & 3 though.
 
Long gears and superchargers ^^

What is my real purpose in this world?

@Minshi Woods  
To pass butter.
 
_{^{Tis a joke from Rick and Morty}}

@Scrabbleman  
I do not watch that show.

@Minshi Woods  
Here’s an explanation then.
 

I have more or less given up on being a colorist.

@Minshi Woods
 
Can I recommend an artist?

@Badheart  
I suppose. But I only color commissions I bought, in case you were wondering. I got tired of asking permission to color other peoples linearts.

@Minshi Woods
 
bigmacintosh2000
 
I already got permission.

I really enjoy coloring for some reason too

When did I get so good at lying? As a person who values honesty, how did this happen?

@Badheart
 
Same with me. Sometimes I’m not sure I just hate this world with all my heart.
 
@Scrabbleman
 
Intelligence (try to be careful with this term). Empathy. Awareness how emotions work. And bang! Are you one of those excellent liars. There are very interesting studies about this. For example, what is the difference between lying and not telling the truth? Both seem to be the same. There are serious differences. A lie benefits you in some way. Not telling the truth is usually meant to protect others from a painful truth. Personally, I can understand that very well.

GUYS I NEED HELP one of my friends is going to suicide!

@TheDreaded  
I’d like to stop them..
 
Could you send me a note, giving their discord/chat-client they go on?
 
This could fuck me up emotionally though
 
Every step of the way helps. UPDATE ME SOON.
 
Tell them to call the suicide hotline..

The dog didn’t want to sleep on my bed because he’s all bloody, I let him anyway and now I sleep in a chair.

I thought I was doing better but.. meh..
 
I was playing this dice game and.. I was laughing and it gave me something to do but… It just felt like… I was doing it to do it.. you know? Idk how to explain better
 
 
And..I just get exhausted really easily… But I think it’s more that I just get bored really easily.. meaning nothing is really enjoyable… Or very few things
 
And.. I wish I had talked to my therapist a few ‘confusions’ I was having more and much sooner… Well, a therapist… Or someone… Just… I think it has caused… Long-term damage to mood.. I mean like.. whenever I think back to it.. it feels worse because I’ve thought about it so much and caused myself so much pain and confusion… Idk
 
My stomach is still burning slightly… It’s very slight but I should still get that checked out soon.. it can also affect my hunger which is not good right now.. I really can’t lose any more weight  
I don’t even know what I weigh but I’m sure I’ve changed maybe a pound in a week… You don’t change much unless you eat a lot different and I’m not.. I should be home in like.. 5-6 days

Actually, a big issue is something happens that I don’t like and then in the future it bothers the fuck out of me to where I can’t stop thinking about what did or might happen again… Ugh  
It makes me depressed being this annoyed by something
 
I’m sure that’s something common but it’s still annoying

I could have been hanging out with my cousin right now
 
It gives me chills thinking about it
 
I tried to help him and now he’s in his grave
 
 
I’ll probably be sad for the rest of my life

Am I “white washed”?

@Flutter_Lover  
No…?

@Flutter_Lover
 
No, you’re black.
 
I’m white washed.