[Dark] Depression/Suicides within the fandom (The revival)

@Osha  
Break the problem down into smaller chunks and take your time. Take breaks when needed; forcing it will burn you out.

@Osha  
You’re getting all worked in a knot I assume because you’re worried how you will be received.
 
Dress sharp, keep your eyes and your mind on what you’re doing. I can play piano pretty good alone, but I’m afraid to play if people around nd, because my entire childhood kids where just randomly talented at music and i wasnt

If people see you are trying, they will come to your assistance. If you give up they will assume your lazy

Maybe I’ll get friends…..when I’m dead.

@Ninji  
Like how I give up on making connections with local bronies?

Dankula convicted. My country is a disgrace and I want to leave.

@Genevamode  
Should’ve posted this in the political thread.  
Though i agree, that is pretty sad.

@Assertive Derpness  
Sorry.

@Genevamode
 
What if I don’t know what to do? In pretty much everything I try I wander aimlessly until I realize I’m a loser who’s only talent is wishful thinking
 
@Ninji
 
Fuck anyone who calls me lazy. They can go pound sand up their ***. I may be stupid, I may not be interesting or “cool”, but I’ve worked hard as I could for a long time and fuck anyone who wants to deny me the one thing that I have to feel good about.

I remember posting here last time, and my mood was pretty grim. And honestly, nothing has been improving, as I’ve been falling into degeneracy more and more everyday. My diet has died down from anything healthy for crap food, as it makes me feel better eating it, and I’ve been gaining almost a quarter pound a day.
 
I haven’t left my room in awhile, as I just don’t see the point. I no longer post much online, as all I care about is sleeping for 12+ hours, then doing basic achievements in life, as that stuff is too hard for someone who has lost almost any will.
 
I honestly don’t expect to get passed this year, as I’ve fallen down so hard, and I’m too poor for rehab, and everyone in my family is so against me, that they want me gone from the planet then being helped.

I wish I could watch the MLP S8 premiere, but……what’s the point? :(

I should leave the brony fandom knowing that it made me this way…..feeling isolated and disconnected all these years. It’s all my fault….

@Flutter_Lover  
No its not. Just take a few deep breaths you will be fine.
 
 
@FillerArtist  
Change your diet, and I doubt your family feels that way.

Fuck. My. Autism.

@LightningBolt  
You’re always going to be the most critical person of yourself. When you fuck up, nine times out of ten you’re going to be the only person that remembers. People don’t sit there and think about how bad someone else is, unless that person was literally an undeniable asshole.
 
If I sit here and try to remember all the worst things that anyone has done, I’m going to remember myself more than anyone, and maybe that 1/100,000,000 asshole or methhead I’ve had to deal with.

I lack self esteem….

Without friends, I HAVE no self esteem. I remain weak, invisible like Wallflower. All I have is friends on the internet and it’s not enough. It never is enough, because locally I could feel like I actually exist in this world if I do end up having friends, and I’m not looking for a HUGE group, just the right amount.

Great! Now I feel like I’m not an important friend anymore! I failed! I failed so fucking hard to cheer him up! But I guess I wasn’t a good help after all anymore! I rather hang myself before I see him suffer so much or before I see him lose his brony spirit and his love for Fluttershy. I am the worst brony buddy! I’m the worst friend in the world! I’M A FUCKING FAILURE TO BE ANYONE’S FRIEND! I deserve to die! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

@Shylover  
No! Please don’t!

@Flutter_Lover  
Forgive me. 😭 I’m so sorry! I failed you!

@Shylover  
No, you do not deserve to die.

@ice1517  
Yes I do. I’m a failure.

@Shylover  
I’m sorry I made you feel like this!

@Flutter_Lover  
Dude, I’m the one who should be sorry! I wasn’t an enough help! I’m sorry! It’s just that I don’t want you to lose your spirit and your love for Fluttershy from all the horrible problems you’re having! I’m scared! I’ll be alone in this fandom. And without you, I’ll never be the same again. 😢