@ice1517
Well, yes, if I’m also able to remember them, I like them.
I can’t blame you to feel like that, text based communication has a lot of limitations, principally, not being able to deduce the intention in which someone else wanted to say something; I passed a lot of times through that issue, and indeed, it can make you have a bad time. The thing is, probably moderators don’t happen to be reminding each of the users unless that it was something quite “memorable”
(whether it is in the positive or bad way). If you happened to say something slightly bad at accident, by the next day it’s not going to be remembered, everyone is too busy doing something else like watching videos, drawing, talking with friends, upvoting art, etc., than to remember each thing that you did, but you feel it stronger, because you are the one conscious and looking out of your actions.
It’s normal the feeling of desiring to leave a mark somewhere, but hey, at least I remember you, and probably some many more does as well; if we compare you with a user that mostly only comment or fave content, I can tell you that you’d be much more remembered as well due of what you do, or because of your high activity in this place. Regarding of your art, the sad reality is that usually dark skin humanizations don’t receive a lot of ‘love’; it’s nothing against you, it just seems a general thing. Just do what you like and enjoy to make, probably some other persons at the first image that they see with upvotes that they made, they would stop making it, and I’m an example of that, I once deleted my name of a pun joke picture that I drew because of the shame that I felt (yes, I did that); while you still have enough strenght to still upload.
And don’t worry! It’s normal to feel these kind of things, after all, the desire to be accepted is common among most of persons.